small photo recap of 2009

we got dressed up & looked perdy. my beloved* had his marvelous beard


i went to vegas!


we watched friends get married*




we got pregnant!


we had accidents.


we went on trips.


i went thru the "beautiful" process of delivery.


we became a family.


we had miss olivia rose*s first christmas.


that is just a few of our photo collection from our 2009 year. it was absolutely fantastic; all the heartaches, backaches, headaches, laughs, smiles, extreme tough times, i wouldn't change a thing of it. it was perfect. my dearest friend julie also had her first child miss isabella* i unfortunately do not have any pictures on the computer of her but she is on our fridge and she is gorgeous as well. i bid you a fair farewell 2009 times were good, onto 2010 & more memories with loved ones.

week 39.

so we are now at week 39. 1 more "scheduled" week to go. oh man! am i ready. my mother just got a crib from my aunt yesterday so she says she is ready too so now olivia rose* can really come LoL but i've been ready for weeks. but i am at a point where i am kind of waiting to hear about my dear friend julie's baby isabella, she is having surgery & it is being scheduled this week so i want to be mobile & able to get to my dear friend julie. her 7 week old (tomorrow!) baby is the cutest lil lady in the world & i love them both so dearly that i want to just be there & hold her hand. sigh. the things that go on man, mind-blowing.

well we had a very "interesting" to say the least weekend this weekend. saw both (immediate) families yesterday, snagged a bunch! of really yummy food from both houses & snugglebutt saw his cousins, grandparents & aunts. so continuing the waiting game we will do, happy monday!

quick & fun filled.

hello blogging world. quick post today; i have been in some serious mia mode lately but in my defense i did just get off of an 11 day work week, it is the Fourth of July weekend & the sun has finally made an appearance to our world, so you can understand where i have been, all over the place LoL

in pregnancy world; i feel great, minus the typical back/feet aches, & fatigue other than that i feel great, i believe i am starting to feel my lil peanut, big gee (an uncle to my beloved*) phrased it best last night "it's like a fish swimming in your belly" and at the moment that's what it felt like; faint, weird, kind of moving around in there not what i was expecting (a quick sudden foot in a rib or side) LoL also! my beloved*s cousin bailey is due today! and i saw her yesterday & did exactly what i hate others do to me; immediately ran up to her screaming "belly!" with my hands out & instantly on her belly when my fingers would in reach. LoL she didn't mind tho. owen matthew* her peanut was all over the place, he felt large & in charge. and she was describing what i should be expecting & confirmed my fishy feeling was probably my lil peanut* i have an appt tomorrow with the doctor; so there should be exciting news about that as well as our first registration experience! i could not be more excited to start baby shopping!

in Fourth of July news; it was eventful yet very calming, relaxing & full of fun people & yummy food. we made stops everywhere too!; my parents, my beloveds* parents, my friend julie* my  beloveds* friends sarah & jordans, & ate food at every stop! LoL everyone makes sure i have something to eat, which i am loving! the fireworks were fun, the family/friends were fun to hang with, and the food was yummy as always what more could you ask for on a holiday to celebrate our independence day than going everywhere & being in good spirits all day; happy fourth my military friends! thank you.

lastly i guess i'll do some postsecrets. the past few sundays i have not been feeling what i have been seeing so much but this week there were just a few & here are my favorites. happy fourth & long beautiful weekend fellow bloggers.

being pregnant i worry less about everyone around me & more about me & my lil peanut* i can not wait to meet her.

ha. how i feel the same exact way; answering phones all day, saying the sentence four times to one person makes you have some hatred with phone calls.

i work with some serious characters & i can do this with all of them.

Frustrated

So there has been an insane amount of things going on around me lately & I am highly frustrated. There is a lot of events, birthdays, functions going on in May so every weekend is tightly scheduled down to the minute for us & for me I am an "on-time, prompt, all my ducks in a row type of gal" and for someone to throw me a curve ball at the pretty much last minute it really frustrates me. I mean come on, we all have lives to lead on a daily basis & we set aside certain times to see loved ones, friends & do these things that need to get done so for someone to just make a phone call "change of plans" casually & then have no thought in the world that maybe other people have things going on & a time change of hours may throw their schedule off, really ticks me off. Blah! Nevermind the fact that my birthday is coming up & for year number two now no one seems to care. I am the type of gal who will make a big deal out of someone else's birthday or special event yet nothing gets done for mine, unless I ask. Who wants to have to ask to be remembered once a year! Really. I guess I am in a rut; all else is well, work is going well, home/family is well, and of course me & my beloved* are fabulous I am in a serious rut. People are driving me insane at the moment, everyone has things to do of course! I realize that, can others realize too? Maybe the fact that I missed out on the fabulous weekend weather that just passed due to being deathly ill! could be why I am so off, who knows. All I can say is; everyone is well, things are going well, and my birthday is coming up! So maybe this rut will just be this particular event & not be one of those snow balls affects. Well Happy Thursday fellow bloggers, tomorrow is my dear Julie's "mock wedding reception" and my speech is non-exsistant at this time, my beloved* says I should just go from the heart the way he's heard me speak of Julie & Walter is fabulous and that would be more than good enough, not to mention the fact and I quote "seeing a tiny goregous girl get emotion is a killer too" so I am leaning towards winging in! Wish me luck fellow bloggers, picture to follow first event my entire family is going to in a long time! Woot.Woot god help the rest of the function.

huge curve ball.

so it is only 9.30a and i have now been up for an hour! thanks aidan, lil cutie snuggles his butt in bed you think ah! yes many another hour of sleep nope! kid has plans to snuggle get in your face & then whisper in your ear "get up, it's time to get up" ah little man how i ache to sleep more. so we are here watching noggin eating toasters strudels & chocolate milk, while my beloved* attempts to make us pancakes (hence the eating another breakfast meal while waiting) but i am writing this morning out of anxiety. my dear friend julie who has recently got married is having ANOTHER wedding reception her mother is kind of just throwing with or without permission from the bride, due to the fact her mother didn't appreciate the actual wedding was so small & her entire family wasn't there. bah! don't even get me started, you had your wedding you chose to do what you did now someone else is getting married, show up, sit down & shut up! blah. but that's a whole different blog posting. so! julie calls me goes over the number of people going, apparently my entire family; my beloved* and my younger brother's lady friend are all invited. and right before we hang up our . . like hour conversation she's like 'so my mom wants to do a toast' now if you knew her mother she is fruity, the most fruity fruit in the bunch!! seriously. she is fruity, insane, intense, & extreme so just thinking about the fact she will be getting up to speak about her daughter (who they recently haven't been seeing eye to eye) was kind of the most unreal, unsure & scariest thing to myself & julie. 'ah really, that should be cool she'll be all emotional; you being pregnant, married, the entire 200+ family members there' Lol julie goes 'oh well she wanted the best man or maid of honor to do it' i go silent! 'jen? hey jen? did you hear me . . ' 'yeah julie i heard you, who was the best man again?' LoL 'oh no i don't want him speaking he'll be a druken slob i was hoping you would do it' now! who can tell their best friend who is pregnant; emotional, crazii, and your favorite person no they won't speak at their wedding. ugh! she has known me since middle school, all thru middle school & high school i was the geek student that would do all of the work so i wouldn't have to get up & speak in front of the class & then 2 years ago i was sent thru work to houston to go to a week long class to become a "mentor or facilitator" of the hotel's policies & procedures which! shocker i have to facilitate in front of a classroom of my co-workers! fabulous so she is completely aware of my fear. haha. and to top all of this off, last night was exactly a week before this ceremony/dinner is happening! ha. i don't write. i can ramble on here for hours easily because it's a bunch of non-sense & if you chose to read it then you do you don't have to sit & listen to me speak to you. oh jeesh someone help me. so that is my small curve ball that has been thrown at me this weekend! 

but! i did receive two early beeday presents last night; my beloved* got me offspring tickets for july. i have loved offspring since high school, i have all of their albums & absolutely love them & have been raving about them since him & i met. so when he found out they were coming to town he knew how much i would love to go see them! also. i got 2 red sox tickets for may 8, the day before my beeday, against the tampa bay rays* eeeh. good game! ah. fabulous weekend people, fabulous weekend! enjoy the nice weather & each other. ciao* 

Showers, Weddings & babies. oh my!

So it is not even spring yet here in Boston yet my world around me only has three things on their minds: showers, weddings, babies! And in that order. LoL none of which I am personally taking part in so my parents are on high alert! I have two near & dear friends who are moving up & out into the world with their men, future husbands, one of the two friends is even expecting a little one of their own. So the events around me aren't the mediocre events that take place everyday, I am seriously happy for them both with all of my heart & so proud that they were able to find the guys they were meant to be with & able to make it work. Lots of people now-a-days get so lazii even when it comes with the one you love, they just don't put the effort into anymore to make things work, nothing is always easy, smiles & laughs it's going to be hard sometimes & they pulled through whatever events/obstacles took place & are stilltogether. I guess because of the events that are taking place around me that is probably why my favorite song of the moment is:

 Kings of Leon 'Use Somebody'

I've been roaming around 
Always looking down at all I see 
Painted faces, fill the places I cant reach 

You know that I could use somebody 
You know that I could use somebody 

Someone like you, And all you know, And how you speak 
Countless lovers under cover of the street 

You know that I could use somebody 
You know that I could use somebody 
Someone like you 

Off in the night, while you live it up, I'm off to sleep 
Waging wars to shape the poet and the beat 
I hope it's gonna make you notice 
I hope it's gonna make you notice 

Someone like me 
Someone like me 
Someone like me, somebody 

Someone like you, somebody 
Someone like you, somebody 
Someone like you, somebody 

I've been roaming around, 
Always looking down at all I see

It is a really good song when you hear it, the instruments that are in the background, the way they sing the song, it's just awesome I love it. But back to my ramble. While all of these events around me & looking back at who we each were in high school makes me wonder if everyone has a somebody. Boggles my mind sometimes. Everyone really could use a somebody. But enough of that mind wondering, over-thinking, always getting myself into trouble business and onto pictures! I have pictures from both Julie's wedding & Valerie's wedding shower. Both girls looked gorgeous, of course & I got pictures with both the bride & bride-to-be. Oh but the picture of Julie & I was taken by her, hot gay photographer (they're all gay!), and that will come soon! Enjoy! Happy Tuesday.

the happy, gorgeous couple.

oh! and that's the hot gay photographer.

my beloved* & i.

julie & liz. sisters(twins)*

her mother did an amazing job with everything. that is val's chair.

athena & val. sisters*

mother & daughter.

best friends forever.

and valerie's second family. that's my mom*

Questions.

So this past weekend I was insanely busy! Work Friday night, visiting the "in-laws" LoL yes they call themselves the "in-laws" LoL I love it, came home slept for a bit & then up & out the door ASAP on Saturday morning. Saturday was the fabulous Kung Fu Panda bowling party; I had to run & get wrapping paper & pick up the gift I saw for Carrie that I had to get her (which she loved) and then got showered & picked up Aidan & were off! My beloved* & I then had to have Aidan up at 9am (which I woke up late, I never do!) and were off once again. The fabulous Miss Kolleen had the 1st Annual NEDA Walk at 10a; supported, chatted, & once again were off! Grabbed a few items needed for me dearest Julie's wedding; showered, dressed (looked gorgeous pictures soon), and once again were off! Of course as soon as we got in the car it began raining, then snowing & just overall yumminess for driving 45 minutes in the  car! But I was not complaining at all because watching my dearest Julie say her vows to the man she loved, Walter (fabulous guy love him to death) just killed me! Uh! One of the dearests down another to go, LoL they're killing me with all of this emotion crap, I don't do the girly emotional crap! Blah! So this weekend was nuts, & today it is catching up with me, I believe I slept about 2/3 of the day! And next weekend will be yet another busy weekend, but this time it will be busy of fabulous events for my beloved* & I; we will be spending time with both parents, traveling to Mohegan Sun (wish us luck to win big) and attending the Aaron Lewis concert while we are there! Woot.Woot we need a weekend away for just us to get away, can not wait! But being at a wedding of course the females deal with the 'something borrowed, something blue & something new' the fact that the bride wears white, & just certain parts of the wedding that take place that are like huh? where did that come from? And of course Miss Nosey-Body over here needs to know the answers, LoL I actually google'd while at the dinner table arguing with one of Julie's cousins about culinary sh!t, had to prove him wrong! 4 years learning about culinary arts you'd think this kid would believe the words coming out of my mouth but no he had to be proven wrong! So my first question, why does a bride wear white? I mean some bride's wear white but we all know the jig is up, if you have a child we all know you are not "pure" LoL sorry sounds horrible & I am not judging in any way, shape or form but if you are doing it for traditional reasons, honey sorry but it's a complete (bad) lie! But http://weddings.weddingchannel.com tells me that 

Any bride may wear white. The white wedding gown is mistakenly thought to represent virginity; it in fact is merely a color of celebration (ancient Greeks wore white for their most important festivals) and a wedding fashion vogue popularized in the 19th century. Still, the second time bride might think twice about selecting the sort of "big, white gown" most commonly worn by first time bride, for fashion reasons, not etiquette reasons. If you've worn a white wedding dress before, it just seems trite to wear one again. Also, there's no getting around the widely held misconception about which brides can wear white, and so you may unknowingly be raising the eyebrows of some guests. If you've been married before, consider going for a more sophisticated, less elaborate look for your return to the alter.'

So that's that. But the veil? Hmm what's that one all about & the same website http://weddings.weddingchannel.com says:

The bridal veil, however, is traditionally a symbol of virginity and second time brides are encouraged not to wear a veil. At the very least, avoid wearing a blusher veil (the short piece of veil that "masks" the bride through the first part of the ceremony and then is raised by the groom when he kisses her).

So we had it backwards?! The veil is what symbolizes the "purity" of the lady. Hm, interesting! Now the something borrowed, new & blue that I found at http://www.ask.yahoo.com/ and they say:

Each item in this poem represents a good-luck token for the bride. If she carries all of them on her wedding day, her marriage will be happy. "Something old" symbolizes continuity with the bride's family and the past. "Something new" means optimism and hope for the bride's new life ahead. "Something borrowed" is usually an item from a happily married friend or family member, whose good fortune in marriage is supposed to carry over to the new bride. The borrowed item also reminds the bride that she can depend on her friends and family.

As for the colorful item, blue has been connected to weddings for centuries. In ancient Rome, brides wore blue to symbolize love, modesty, and fidelity. Christianity has long dressed the Virgin Mary in blue, so purity was associated with the color. Before the late 19th century, blue was a popular color for wedding gowns, as evidenced in proverbs like, "Marry in blue, lover be true."

And finally, a silver sixpence in the bride's shoe represents wealth and financial security. It may date back to a Scottish custom of a groom putting a silver coin under his foot for good luck. For optimum fortune, the sixpence should be in the left shoe. These days, a dime or a copper penny is sometimes substituted, and many companies sell keepsake sixpences for weddings.

I love finding out where things came from, now onto, what I think if the worst & silliest part of the wedding the throwing of the bouquet, which by the way they did twice last night aiming for me!! Neither time did it even come close to me, LoL now I remember why we picked up soccer Julie! Now after getting information on this part of the traditions, it was a real stunner nothing I expected and honestly glad that this tradition started because what happened originally was nuts & I'd personally crack some skulls dressed up in my white "purity" wedding dress in front of my entire family easily! www.wisegeek.com told me that 

In medieval Europe, a bride typically did not expect to wear her wedding dress again, and the dress was considered good luck for other women, a type of fertility charm. After the wedding, single women chased the bride and ripped pieces off her dress, leaving her in tatters. Over the years, wedding dresses became more expensive and it became traditional for women to keep them, either as a memento or to pass on to a daughter for her wedding day.

To prevent guests from ripping the wedding dress, brides began throwing other objects as a distraction, one of which was the garter. Later, the bouquet became the most traditionally thrown object. The wedding bouquet is particularly suited to this use, as flowers symbolize fertility, and as perishable items, they are not something the bride would wish to keep. The bouquet is also a safer item to toss than the garter, as unruly and impatient wedding guests were sometimes known to try to take the garter from the bride while she was still wearing it.

Some modern brides and grooms do not like the tradition of throwing the bouquet and either modify it or do away with it altogether. Tossing the bouquet can be uncomfortable for unmarried female guests who do not wish to marry or who feel put on the spot by the custom. Also, competition to catch the bouquet can become a violent stampede. Some brides stage the event so that their maid of honor or a friend who is engaged catches the bouquet. Others choose to give a small bouquet to each of their bridesmaids, or to give each woman at the reception a flower from the bridal bouquet.

woah! imagine seeing that now-a-days instead of just the  throwing of the bouquet!? I personally would either die laughing or defending the bride?! (depending which side I was on) LoL absolutely hilarious. 

I guess I am done for the night, feeling exhausted & starting to feel coldy (getting a cold) I just needed some answers to all of my questions & after a few drinks google'ing on a tiny blackberry rather than dancing to the B-52s isn't really an option! LoL and my beloved* has a lot of answers to many of my questions but was stumped at a certain point so I needed answers!

Lots of Insanity

Today is a day full of sicky feelings, cold weather & lots of work before the busy weekend (for once) begins! But! this weekend is going to be jam-packed with lots of fun activities beginning tomorrow bright & early! Plus they're saying yet another snow storm fabulous! That's exactly what we need here in Boston, more snow! But back to this fabulous weekend that is coming up, I want to begin it with some Nirvana, who in their right mind does not love(d) them! I have no idea, three hot guys with long hair in the mid-90s just busting out with music we (better) all love. Here is one of my favorite's :
I'm so happy cause today
I found my friend . .
they're all in my head
I'm so ugly, but that's okay, cause so are you . .
We've broken our mirrors
Sunday morning is everyday for all I care . .
And I'm not scared
Light my cangles, in a daze
hey, hey, hey

I'm so lonely, but that's okay, I shaved my head. .
And I'm not sad
And just maybe I'm to blame for all I've heard
But I'm not sure
I'm so excited, I can't wait to meet you there . .
But I don't care
I'm so horny, but that's okay . .
My will is good
hey, hey, hey
awe. fabulous guys how we miss you. awe. kurt cobain how we miss you! the fabulousness of nirvana

i have my dear friend julies* wedding this weekend

( awe. one down one more to go this year . . who's next? )
the 1st annual NEDA walk is Sunday morning
( woot.woot to miss kolleen )

i am loving that after the wedding Sunday night my beloved* & i will be spending all monday in bed, comfy comfy bed/snuggle time

we also have a 5 yr olds kung fu panda bowling party

( i am wicked excited for, i heart bowling )

and of course, last but def not least my dearest val's 24th beeday which is Sunday, she would prefer to spend her bed & with her man so everything pans out perfectly. we will be doing a ladies dinner sometime next *(fyi. our dear friend stephanie is home from south american she's been gone 2 1/2 years now) AWE how grand 2009 & life has been for me.

happy weekend to all, enjoy the cold, nasty weather this weekend great weekend to be with your favorites, enjoy some good food/wine & snuggle time

Update!

This will now be my slogan!I have a million different activities pulling me in every which way, it's insane sometimes. I, of course, have to work (that'll never change) & we are undergoing major changes; come good & some horrid, scarey & jsut making all of us crap our pants. I am working on my two personal favorite walks: NSTAR'S walk for Children's Hospital of Boston & The Breast Cancer Awareness walk but I have a new walk to put on my calender & get amp'd for, it is the 1st Annual NEDA walk oragnized, promoted & just overall rocked this event by the fabulous Kolleen. This walk is this month on the 22nd, which LoL that weekend I have a beeday party and a wedding! Insane. Please pardon my disappearance & overall sucking of my blog entries lately I am just in a million places right now! It snowed, again! yesterday, worked on my day off Monday, & now back to work already! It never ends LOL but despite the stress levels increasing, the sleep seriously slacking (my own crazii sleeping habits' fault), and the my diet just completely horrid (living off caffeine & sugar) but I am amp'd to get it all done. My favoritest thing in the world is prepping for a walk, the stress is insane. You have a million things to do, you feel it won't get completely in time, raising money (economy it horrid), getting walkers, supporters but once the event comes & you're in action & finally finish & sit back & just sigh with relief it's all done but that it was successful & a blast! But now is crunch time. I am heading back to work mode (if I can get myself there today), finishing up some projects there, & beginning the donation hunt! Ciao fellow bloggers, promise to be back soon with a fabulous blog about fabulous things. LoL here are some fun photos of what my life has/is going to consisit of for the next few months!

Poor Homer! This will be me . . I am assuming mid-July?!


The NEDA logo!

This would be my preggers Julie. Oh is she going to be brutal, 7-8 months pregnant in the middle of summer! LoL good luck Walter.

And of course the stack of bridal showers, and few baby showers I will be attending this year. Is it okay to have like 3 mis-matchable outfits & just alternate? LoL Seriously people my money tree died years ago forgive me for the outfit repeats
Good luck to me & all of my upcoming events, visit me if I am admitted!

Books!

So yesterday being superbowl Sunday, my beloved* & I did mainly all day but we did get our butts up & over to Barnes & Noble, exciting! I am now seriously into reading, I've borrowed so many books from so many people I thought that'd I go out & get my own! I bought 'Poison Apples' it's on the side with 'Wicked', 'Wizard of Oz' and whatever the son of the witches book is, LoL I just heard of it yesterday. But it's about the wicked step-daughters of the three wicked witches! Whoopie, can not wait to get home tonight & read it; of course after food shopping, cleaning, cooking/eating, & starting the laundry. But I plan on starting it today! I am working insane hours this week (boss is on vacation) but have three days off in a row next week so will get a lot of it read soon! I also went & got my dearest Julie the book 'What to Expect when you're Expecting' she's now 8 weeks along & insane! LoL love you but you are, we all know it. But she has a million questions; calls me, her doctor, asks everyone questions about the baby, what do, blah blah. Now asking me? Is she insane I have no idea about that kind of stuff, single white female here! Hello. What would I know about babies or being pregnant LoL I mean I do know her but knowing her as a pregnant woman (hehe love it) I am at a loss. But that is it for today, so sorry fellow bloggers . Lots to do this week; insanity at the hotel, NEDA walk to help organize with Kolleen, household crap to do ( LoL ) & fitting in snuggle time with my beloved* Phew! I am exhausted already. Ciao* Happy work week, lovelys.

New Ideas

So this morning instead of working; I am sleeping in, drinking tea, & wondering what do I get my two oldest/dearest friends who are both getting married within 3 months! My friend Julie, who I have blogged about she's pregnant & now moved the wedding to Feb! Val's moved to April! Which does not give me a lot of time. But! I can not do just the everyday wedding gift, to me that's so lame! I need well-thought out, original Jennie gifts! I was thinking for my friend Julie, a collage of photos from years ago & ones more recent in a really nice frame & for my friend Val, I have this rockin friend Kolleen who is an awesome artist (maybe?!) if I'm lucky she can help me out with hers because I can draw but it's the skills of a fourth grader! LoL But I need some help! What or where can I get some rockin wedding gift ideas? I follow this amazing blog Jumping over the Broom which is all about a woman going from dating to engaged to planning a wedding but I need some really good ideas! Someone please send some feedback & awesome original ideas to give some dear friends who are making the plunge! LoL Just Kidding couldn't be more happy for either of them, they both found love & amazing guys who I couldn't dream up better guys for them. HAPPY MONDAY!

Exciting! Exciting!

I honestly can not get over all of the excitement, joy, awesome things that are/have been happening thus far into 2009. I mean I walked into 2009 thinking but nothing besides positive things, finding the 'silver lining' on things & honestly! karma is giving it all right back to me & my circle of people. So far 2009 has brought myself & my beloved* closer (had a heart to heart accidently drunk on NYE LOL), my dearest friends Val & Julie are both getting married this year, both of which I am attending but! with Julie's I am her maid-of-honor and I plan on being the best maid-of-honor I can be! Julie found out she was pregnant last week! (she calls and says guess what? you're an aunt & I'm a mommy) How rockin is that phrase? My beloved* and I have lots of plans for ourselves (none of which are getting married or pregnant no rush!) Family is doing just fabulous! Friends are better than ever! Work is steady & just have seen nothing but awesome people thus far! Things are just awesome. I seriously feel that this will be my best year ever! I am happy, healthy, with someone who completely loves & understands me, my tight knit family has extending to my mother's two sisters (BIG DEAL!) for us! LoL I am finally! getting that tattoo I talked about way back when I first started this blog. And I chose the one below!

There is a lot of meaning behind it for me & I honestly don't want to get into the details here. But I have yet to deceide who's initials or name I want, I am leaning towards 'angel' due to the reasons behind this one tattoo. AH! THEN! I have another tattoo planned it's the symbol for 'hope' which again has a lot of meaning for me, lots of people I know are sick or have something going on that we need to hope for the better days, things don't worsen, we just gotta hope! AH! 2009 is just a fabulous year! I am seriously just gleaming! I love everything at the moment; I love the people in my life, the life I am leading, the person I am becoming & the things that are happening or are in the works of happening! I honestly hope everyone else is as happy as I am or getting there! Good luck & lots of love for everyone in 2009.

Fabulous News!

So today all I can write about it the 2 minute phone call I got & I can not get over the excitement, joy & the just complete shock (yet not) of it. MY DEAREST JULiE IS PREGNANT! I could not be more excited even if it was me, seriously! She called me a few months ago letting me know she was engaged & that I got the honor of being her maid-of-honor. The man she is marrying is absolutely amazing! I have know this girl for years now & was by her side thru some really crap stuff that happened for both of us & she is like a sister! I am just completely overtaken by the phone call & news that I got so I can not write about anything else but this fabulous news! 2009 is turning out to be a wonderful year. 2 weddings, a baby on the way, a big move being planned & just overall goodness! Ah 2009 you are making me one happy lady. Hope everyone else is feeling the same blissfulness that I am!

Sorry these are such old pictures, they are from 2006 over an allnighter at the ER.

Wondering.

So today while at working I am just catching myself in dazes of amazement. Amazement of the different people that are coming into the hotel/restaurant & how such different people end up together, seriously amazing! Myself & my beloved* tend to be seriously different in ceratin aspects but then again completely the same in others. And I catch myself wondering off into LaLa Land & just thinking a million different things, is there a soulmate or one person out there for us? Do we ever "really know what we have before it's gone"? Is there such a thing as a soulmate? I honestly feel that there is just one person for everyone. Of course we find people that are seriously compatible with us & we could have a wonderful life with them, but I really feel that there is that one person out there that just fits to us like a piece to a puzzle that completes us. That, of course, we need work at the relationship & try to make things go well or easy but that your thoughts, ideas, just overall outlook on life matchs up. And I personally found mine! He is absolutely amazing, we just click! We both have the same values, ideas, dreams & just mesh well together. We, of course, have our arguments & disagreements but overall we just laugh & enjoy each other. And now that I have found him & know that I have found him I promise to never leave, lose or cheat him out of anything. He is a huge part of my life & everyday for 2009 I vow to make sure he knows it. Someway; either text, a call, a kiss on the forehead whatever way I feel it fit for that day/occasion I am going to make sure he knows it.

Don't get me wrong we have had our own issues; mainly outside people putting their two sense in, or inverting themselves into our little bubble & interupting our blissfulness (is that a word?) LoL but we rock! And I now know what two of my dearest friends, Val & Julie have been talking about now all this time. When you find someone that just clicks with you & you know what you have nothing else matters. The pettiness of other events, details, or just overall childish things don't matter as much & you just tend to let them fade out of your sight & life. And you just wrap yourself up in their essence, love & just the fabulousness of the whole relationship. Many events have taken place in the short, yet long year we have been together & I was highly distressed about a lot of the events that have taken place but honestly. You can not control others, or their actions & why would you want to?! Every event has led me up to where I was today, altho some had been horrible if I could have controlled any of them or altered them in the slightest way I may not be where I am today & that would be seriously upsetting.

So I guess all I am writing today is to enjoy those you love. The person in your life that is your everything, let them know it! Let them know it everyday! Never for a second let them feel any angry, sadness or just overall horrid feelings if you can help it. Enjoy life! 2009 people, things will be just fine! And here are two photos I love of my beloved* Here's to you babe, you are my soulmate!

Hold!

So I am putting the debate on hold for a few hours in hopes for some clearity on a topic. I understand we as people change, multiple times in our life but sometimes is a change such a bad thing that "friends" just pretty much abandon you? Seriously. So you go through a "rough patch" drinking all the time, partying the days & weeks away and you spend all of your hard earned money on drinks & getting into clubs, and then you find someone. Not just anyone but someone who has completely changed your views & outlook on life as a whole. You are now into the spending quality time, looking towards the future, finally move out of your parents house (which you were hell bent on never leaving), and basically just acting more of an adult. But certain people that you thought were friends completely get fed up with this 'change' and just slowing cut off all ties & contact, until nothing! Now I understand friends get distant, we live different lives, have people in our lives we would prefer to spend more time with but to ask someone to join in on something then completely never mention it again & then blame you! for bailing & never hanging out is that neccessary? Now I may be young, naive or just plain stupid when it comes to 'friends' but wouldn't they be happy for me? I am not in that horrible cycle anymore, actually enjoying life, more positive & unbeat, and just overall happy! Why can't people be happy for you? I understand misery loves company, but when these people seem to be happy as well why can't they celebrate in the happiness for everyone not just themselves? I am honestly stunned & don't know what to even try & say at this point. At first I thought it was me, being cold & distant (everyone does it when a relationship is new, they want to spend all their free time with their new signifcant other) but I tried!! I honestly did, I called, texted just checked up on everyone & I got snubbed, attitudes & completely dissed out of things I was told about & told to 'have that night off' so I honestly & sadly gave up. I was just wondering, is this an issue many of us deal with? Or is it just something that you learn over time, certain people will just always suck & not be cool with 'change'. I mean I did at first, yes, distant myself wrap myself up with nothing but my beloved* but I tried to stop it, and I saw my friend Val once a week (at least) we did a girls night, or went someone where and did something together. But the others, yes all of our lives are busy just didn't seem to care or make any effort?! And now I am finding friends in the oddest places, (NO OFFENSE TO ANY OF THESE PEOPLE MENTIONED JUST ODD) the lovely Lisa has been there for me when I have had 'bad days' & she is just overall amazing, this guy Patrick I work with is always asking how I am, the family & my beloved* & Aidan are, the fabulous Kolleen even has been great! She is working for the great Benefit cosmetics and has reached out for us to hang & chit chat about the makeup she sells, and also gave me for my prize with the Beauty Question Week she had going on, and of course my two oldest & dearest friend Julie & Val, if you knew some of the stories we've had it's not only hilarious but amazing we are all still such good friends and have always been there for me. So it is just mind blowing to me that these people who said 'they would always be here for me no matter what, we are BFFs & such' just drop me like a bad hairdo or trend going on. So, all in all today I in a fabulous mood & will continue this friendly debate we have going on! But I was just wondering if anyone else has ever had this situation before or am I alone in this situation, or is it something I will learn to better a better judge in characters (which I thought I was, I don't get very close with many), who knows?! Until later fellow bloggers more on the whole Sex n The City vs Twilight saga.