I Triple Dog Dare You!

I triple dog dare you! LoL the lovely Lisa just said that to another girl at work here LoL hilarious! How long has it been since someone had said that to/near you? LoL I love it. I swear my job isn't a really job, it's a place where we come, dressed in 'uniforms' joke around, run around the hotel & literally laugh our asses off all day! LoL love my job! But . . to the blogging! So after my horrible, mortifying, long, painful, embarrassing week I finally enjoyed myself to the fullest on Saturday. It was my oldest friend Kaiti's beeday and of course we had to go out & have a blast regardless of how shitty our own weeks were! and man did we! We went to Bisuteki Japanese Steakhouse in Revere where I swear to god we had the most absolute best time & then went back to Cheryl's house, momma of the McG clan. Somehow I managed to stay up & out until 3.30a, stunning I know! And I became an honorary McG! FABULOUS! Bam chicka bam waw. I went home to my beloved* finally on Sunday & it was so good to see, hug & kiss him again. Not seeing the love of your life in a week is so hard! Super excited, after a horrible, miserible week could things get any better? Now it's Monday afternoon & I am back to work & feeling great. Absolutely great! LaLa . .onto Christmas! Seriously slacking in that area, doing the tree this week, wrapping the fabulous gift I already have my beloved* & doing Aidan's Christmas shopping this week . . at some point LoL not exactly sure when. Super excited! OH! AND ontop of all the fabulous-ness our anniversary for being together for a year is in between Christmas & New Years, uh! Life is good! Well bloggers, we have a machine here in the office that is absolutely ridiculously loud & I can not think so I am off for now, ciao*

it is the 5th.

So it's December 5th, that leaves only 19 shopping days until Christmas. 19 shopping days! Oh my goodness, I am so unprepared this year it's not even funny! I have been completley under the weather, Thanksgiving snuck up on me this year & you don't even really need to be prepared for that just show up at a relatives house with a tumbley rumbling. Now! Christmas is sneaking right up on me as well and I am slacking! OH NO! I was good up until . . uh about a month ago LoL I had started shopping on the internet for a few items over the summer, yes! the summer and figured eh! I've started I can slack a little, it will be absolutely fine I mean I did get a head start, right? NOPE! Definitely not the case at all, because I did that now I'm just like eh! next week, okay this weekend, okay damn I gotta pay this or that & I swear I'll do it this weekend. LoL And now here it is December 5th and I have presents & decorations & lots of spirit but no movement since! LoL Is anyone else feeling like the hours, days, and months are just passing way too fast? When we were younger the Holiday Season couldn't come fast enough & now it's like shit! when the hell did Halloween get here? Cause that is really what starts the domino affect! Damn you Halloween, for getting us all so wrapped in the excitement of being silly, scared, chilly, & just having loads of fun that we forget we're 'adults' now & we need to strap ourselves done & get the show on the road! LoL So I am off to seriously start 'website shopping' and writing down exactly what I'm getting everyone, where it is, & ( LoL, here's where the OCD kicks in ) map out where I'm going & exactly what my shopping day will consist of. Because there's nothing I hate more than being unprepared & disorganized is dealing with the malls & the complete bags that it somehow find their way out of their wholes & into society. So I am off, to shop! This long, miserible, terror of a week has finally come to an end & hope everyone enjoys their weekend, bundle up it's going to be chilly. Ciao*

So Maybe.

Okay, so maybe my last blog went in the wrong direction. What I am trying to get across is that we show ourselves in a certain light when we first meet someone new & then of course begin to get comfortable & start to show more & more of our 'real' selves as the comfort level gets higher. And as we learn more about the new person we've met we start to see we clash in certain areas, certain areas that have to be dealt with & really often. But when one meets in the middle & it takes "bitching" or "nagging" to get the other to meet halfway, is that really the fair thing to do? I mean, yes! no one asked for one of us to just automatically meet in the middle, but should you need to be asked to do things for the one you love? You do them because you have learned certain facts about that person & realize it'll mean a lot to them if you did certain things, so why is it that the other can't do it for you because they would be compromising who they were? I just don't get it. And then of course, all the "bitching" gets thru finally! and they try and work things out & do things a little different, but it never takes long for the old habits to jump right back into play, and we're back at square one. I just don't know, maybe I am impossible or extremely difficult but I personally don't think having both members of a friendship, relationship, whatever meet you halfway & actually put an effort into it isn't too much to be asking for. Maybe I am just in a rut at the moment, due to the stuck in bed syndrom I have, who knows. But my mind can wonder, seriously! LoL and I have slept a good amount of the day but also have been pondering a lot of different things, people, and situations that are surronding me at the moment and whether or not it's all worth it. Should 'friends' act a certain way? Should 'loved ones' just be 'eh whatever' I mean yes we all have our days, so when is it not just that day and when is it they're being selfish, unsensitive & completely selfish. Or maybe it's me? Maybe I am just like 'eh whatever' towards these people & not realizing that I too need a reality check? HHHhHhmmm. The millions of questions I have, and so little in answers.

Wondering.

So today, again stuck in my house on 'bedrest' I have a lot of time on my hands and only so much stuff to actually keep me busy so my mind wanders, and if you actually know me I think up crazii thoughts/stories. But today I feel I am more realistic in my thoughts & wonderings. I wonder, well this statement I rather actually stand completely behind. Why is it that we show so much of ourselves at the beginning part of the relationship with someone new? Why don't we show our full & complete selves from day one, so that way that whole 'you knew who I was from the beginning, this is me sorry but I won't change this way the way it was before you came around and this is the way it'll stay' actually means way more. Now I completely agree with that to a point, yes! everyone is a certain someone & if you start dating someone, fall in love with them that's who you fell in love with & they shouldn't change. But where is the compromise? Every relationship has to have give & take, and you have to sometimes do/go somewhere you don't neccessarily want to, because you love that person. And ( LoL ) trust me I do my fair share of compromising, so I am just wondering where is the breaking point? Apparently, women 'bitch' I agree yes, but when it is really 'bitching' or 'nagging' rather than just making a statement the other doesn't like? If someone is asked, what do you think/feel about this? And you give them an honest answer & they don't like it, why is that considered 'bitching'? I don't personally see it as that but hey! what do I know right, I'm just a needy female. I also hate that phrase after someone says all your faults and their reasoning to 'dealing' with it is 'because i love you' okay seriously, you just made me sound like a complete douche & because you love me you deal with it? BAH! I swear men & women really are from different planets and for some reason we can not get thru to each other with everything because (don't even try and deny it) we all have disagreements, fights & arguments. Now maybe I am being 'oversenitive' as many have said I am lately, but I believe these people around me who know what the hell is going on with me are forgetting what the hell I've been thru the past few day,s HELL!! is where I've been, literally. And if I am being a little oversenitive, whiny or needy oh well, you love me deal with it, I have been thru hell the past few days. I don't know what the purpose of this blog & rant is today but I am stressed, annoyed, & honestly just thinking a lot about a lot and wondering how much more I can hold my composure & just breathe thru the anger, frustration & pain. Because I honestly don't think it's much longer. Well, I imagine I'll be back later today, again, sitting on my ace doing a whole lot of nothing but thinking so I may need somewhere to be oversenitive & whiny. Thanks fellow bloggers.

I love.

So today has been a long day, even though I've done much of nothing. Extremely stressful, full of anxiety, pain, and just an overall horrible day. But like I stated earlier, I had a lot of time on my hands & I am doing a fun blog for today full of things I love! I have done one before, so I am picking some new items I love, and plan to continue this once in a while. So here you go!

I love taking goofy pictures, I believe I have more pictures of me being goofy than any other.

Not only goofy but completely smashed in this one!
Even back in high school I was doing silly pictures, senior luau.

Just a random night dressed hilariously & my beloved* thought it would be a good time to snap a picture of me at 2am, thanks babe!

Kaiti, myself & Melissa. re-do of the original taken like 9 years ago.

Yup same night as first picture, told you I was smashed, have no idea how I ended up on the floor but everyone got a cup with their name on it that night!

Burnt to a crisp in Miami, they thought my height with that bar would be funny, the slogan for it ' you have to be this tall to get on the ride '

Another in Miami, sticking my head in a lions' mouth.

HaHa, my boss took this picture at work, she didn't think I'd fit in the bag! Proved her wrong.

I absolutely love That 70s Show something my beloved* & I bonded over.

I heart my Lizzie Poo Bear, oldest & only female cousin.

I heart Emma. Since myself, the only other female in the family! Cutest little lady!

I love fuzzy socks!

Of course, I love the Red Sox.

I love TinkerBell.
Even at 23 I want more TinkerBell items, have TinkerBell all over my room. no shame!

Two loves in one here! Goofy pictures & Willy Wonka.

I love teddy bears, have only three now! But the three I have I actually sleep with. no shame!

I guess it's more of a need, than a love but I always have a fan in my bedroom & have it on!

Love collecting dolls. Have a bunch in my bedroom, and even more in boxes stored away.

That's all for today fellow bloggers, I am exhausted & going to a slacker for once in my life, ah! can't wait two days of nothingness, well minus this morning. Til next time.

Yup.

Yup! So today was the dreaded, horrible, longest hour of my life, thank the Lord it's over! and now nothing but bed rest, sleep & horrible day time shows for the rest of my long way over needed restful, nothing day. With barely any sleep the last few days you'd think I'd have a million things to blog about or have tried blogging about aimless things at 3am when I'm up and miserible but I haven't and I failed NaBloPoMo as I mentioned in my blog yesterday. Without getting in to crazii details (not a very open person about my personal life, issues, feelings) let's just say today was seriously, no sarcasim over dramatic exaggeration here, the worst day of my life thus far, even only being 10.45 in the morning. I was up like I mentioned at about 2am couldn't sleep have no idea when I actually went back to sleep but got back up at 7am and went to see, seriously, a fabulous doctor. Thank god my mother went with me or I honestly believe out of the complete blind numbing pain I was in I probably would have killed her & everyone in the office, LoL. Horrible I know, but I am the biggest baby to pain & this morning was horrid! I actually had a panic, anxiety, and hyperventilation attack all at the same time. But, I am feeling a million times better, getting to do nothing all day today (time to research & blog more interesting things) sleep, watch horrible day time shows, and as far as it's looking get to do it all again tomorrow! Which for me, is rather exciting. So fellow bloggers I believe I may nap, eat some lunch, and then research some cool stuff to finally blog about after almost a week on a crazii leave, I am back! And ready for action!

i FAiLED !!

>> i FAiLED!!! <<

I failed you NaBloPoMo! I made it all the way to the 28th & then failed miseribly!! I am so sorry, I fell awful. LoL I would drive my beloved* nuts late at night when we are all comfortable ready for snuggles & I would scream! 'I gotta blog tonight sh!t' LoL But I failed, I am sorry! I have been quiet sick lately & that is why I haven't blogged, yeah yeah I know oh what's it take to get your laptop lazii girl & blog in bed. HEY! ( lol ) YOU HAVE NO IDEA WHAT THE HECK I'VE BEEN GOING THRU THESE PAST FEW DAYS IT HAS LITERALLY BEEN HELL! And tomorrow is the day I have been dreading since it all started, it is not only going to be an emotional hell but a physcial hell! ARG! If I could skip any day in my entire life tomorrow would be it, and not by any close race but blown the rest of my days out of the water.

But things other than that have been okay, work is good. Hours changed 12p-10p long days but only four of them & up til this whole 'episode' have been actually flying by & going pretty well work with the entire staff here for the drivers, & front desk agents which rocks cause I actually do enjoy 99.9% of the people I work with. Family is good, kids (don't have any LoL) are good, my beloved*, Aidan are both good. Can't really complain at this particular moment. And really don't have much to b!tch about on this blog, other than the fact that friends who aren't really friends, who once in a while try & pretend their friends in a half ass way & then expect it to be your fault that things aren't the way they once were. OH WELL. But that is all for the night, I may be back tomorrow to b!tch about doctors, nurses & hospitals (which is what most of my day will consist of, yay* for days off) or may just take some meds & pass out! Ciao fellow bloggers* oh how have I missed you all so dearly.