pictures!

so as i said in my last blog i have been seriously slacking on updating photos of my precious little lady. so i went through some photos my family has posted on the internet (slacking posting there as well LOL) so i have selected just a few to put up tonight, olivia is visiting with her nana & papa law tonight so i have time to myself . . what do i do? LOL so here are just a few taken rather recently & she had another huge milestone today, she got her ears pierced! it's a family thing that we get them done wicked early & due to the surgery, flu season, etc crap we had to wait until she had two sets of shots in her & she got the second set on monday. and i honestly think i cried more than olivia rose* did when she got it done. altho they say "it's usually a similar reaction to when babies get shots" that's a crock of sh!t. olivia does well with her shots, cries a bit & as soon as she's comforted she just stares at the doctor like what the hell. today!! today, she flipped out. i honestly haven't seen her flip out like that since children's & then there was way more than plenty of reason for her to flip. haha. i actually almost chickened out, yeah i tried to right before we sat in the chair. my dad took a video of it & after it was over we watched it i actually both laughed & cried at it. my baby looks even more gorgeous with her gold pink studs! awe my precious. happy rainy tuesday!

playing with her godmother* she spoils her so much


shopping with me & my parents, nana & papa law. they also spoil her so much.


she got her ears pierced today. i think i cried more than she did. also, more shopping done afterwards nana & papa law thought she endured so much that day she needed a shopping spree LoL no pictures tho too much comforting being done.

4 months.

so. last wednesday my little precious lady turned four months! omg. time really does fly. i was just talking to olivia's gamma (my beloved*s mom) telling her everything that was going on & i got all choked up, man my baby is growing up already & i am having a fun yet really hard time with it. we had her four month checkup today which of course entailed two shots but it also consisted of a pound weight gain totaling 13 pounds & 6 ounces, she is in the 75% for her height & has a big head LoL we also can start planning her christening yay* (we had to do a bit of waiting due to her surgery), she will be getting her ears pierced this week & has two of the most gorgeous dresses one from her godmother & the other from her papa mcg (he is an amazing shopper!) we did a room switch with our room & the kids room. there seems to be so much more space in both room now with the switch. snugglebutt seemed to love it today he had all his trucks out, legos everywhere we just got to get him liking the clean up process a bit more. the whole sharing thing he is doing great with but for him he sees it as his room (olivia does just sleep in there) so he's like why do i need to move them. LoL yeah fire truck, little army guys in the middle of the floor are going to be the death of me. LoL but olivia's appointment went wonderful. it's funny when looking for a pediatrician we didn't want a young doctor LoL our first meeting with the new pedi we got the young doctor but she is absolutely amazing! we love her, she is amazing with olivia. i just absolutely love her doctor. but we got a clean bill of health for everything, she had her special shot, gaining weight just like she should be. things are amazing with her. she is laughing (cutest little laugh she sort of hiccups during it, adorable!), grabbing things, slobbering all over everything/everyone, having cute little screaming fits. loves mickey mouse clubhouse, pooh & tiger, spongebob!, little einsteins,& ni hao ki lan! i love ni hao ki lan & when shopping the other day with my parents we saw her toys, aah! so excited.
with easter coming up this weekend our lounging & relaxing is coming to a halt but for great reason. food, family & here in boston weather in the upper 70s aah! super excited. normally my beloved* & i haven't spent easter with his family but all rules go out the door when there is a new baby in the mess. also, i have been trying to get snugglebutt down to the city to visit his cousins as often as our crazy schedules lets us, so we are doing Sat with that side of the family & then Sunday with mine. we have gone to my aunts the past two years for easter, my younger cousins love my beloved* & snugglebutt. but snugglebutt's mom's family is a lot more religious & into the holiday so of course he would spend it with them but we will go there sunday. but this great weather coming up makes the weekend that much more exciting. it is raining again like crazy but i personally could give a crap less because there is light at the end of the wet tunnel LoL
not much else going on here other than the mom & family thing. i haven't posted pictures in a long time of my little peanut or anyone else so i am hoping after this weekend i will have tons more to chose from to post. oh! huge milestone my peanut is teething. LoL
happy monday. yay to a great weekend.

a month later

so i hadn't realized it's been over a month since my last blog, woah. well since the last blog what has happened? lol a whole lot. Olivia had her visit with her cardiologist since she left children's; he was so impressed, said she seemed like a brand new healthy gorgeous baby girl, clean bill of health & received her RSV shot to help her with not getting too sick. olivia also got her first cold which was worse on me than her, she also got mommy & daddy sick which again was worse on us than on her, lol. kids man i preached it forever they harbor germs and i got to feel that first hand still looking for the culprit that got my peanut sick & i will find them LoL. olivia is now laughing, screaming up a storm, making amazing faces at us, loves to stare at her daddy, had her first meeting with the easter bunny & is being spoiled everyday by family & friends.
aidan is doing wonderful; still his hyper all over the place self, loving his toys & games, being silly & still a little hesitant to play with his sister but we give him no pressure due to the ordeal we all went through but one day i will get him to snuggle her up & have a feeling he'll just be another one i'll have to fight to get my peanut back. LoL
in bad news my family has lost our dearly papa who was the backbone to our family. it was the best thing for him, he was so sick & tired & just ready to go. one thing that stands out to me that happened in his last few weeks he wanted to see olivia & when i walked her over to him he said to me & my brother "the baby is here, the baby is okay i can go now" crushing & beautiful at the same time. that man was the love of my life, the one thing i always wanted in my entire life; not money, fancy things, but a picture dancing with him in a wedding dress. LoL for me i never thought that day would come just because i wasn't for the whole marriage thing but now it won't due to he has passed. i have been battling in my head whether that is super selfish of me to think that way but every woman in my family has had it & i get to be the first that goes without, but again i was never for marriage so i should have been ready to never get it right? sigh. i also tried to do a reading for him at his funeral & i personally tend to joke & horse-around when extremely nervous & that is how i was leading up to the funeral. even at the wake i was okay, where i thought i would be worse. but the morning of the funeral, during the funeral i lost it. when my name was announced i couldn't even stand. i was so embarrassed & upset with myself that i couldn't even attempt to do it. my aunt (his daughter) who was crushed by his passing said she was honored that i even agreed to it & knew i wouldn't be able to get through the whole reading but that my papa knew how i felt & knew i did my best & couldn't be prouder. of course there is always family drama everywhere we go & his services were just the same. although a lot of amends were made & things seem to be looking up in the family situation which he would be thrilled of, he was again the backbone of the family & no matter what drama we thought would go down at an event he would be there front row making the most noise & being the proudest. he will be dearly missed everyday of the rest of my life. but i am lucky enough to have my beloved & olivia meet him before he passed & he loved them both. i am even thinking about calling olivia 'livi' because he called her that.
my beloved is doing well. he has been stressed lately due to normal things but other than that things are just swimming. i unfortunately didn't go back to work. yes i know i need the adult interaction & the escape from being trapped in the house all day with peanut but the amount of stress, anxiety & anguish i endured working there it wasn't worth it. i due plan on finding something closer to home, part-time & enjoyable for work & have come across a few good looking prospects.
so all in all things are going pretty well. wish certain things were a little different but things happen for a reason & we will always come out stronger. happy tuesday.