8.14.2009

should i stay or should i go?

so in regards to the other days post, the angry unhappy one about co-workers, YEAH! that one. LoL the meeting we had about everything going on in the building, we are currently undergoing a management change, our property was bought out. which i haven't figured out is a good/bad thing, obvious with people running the show there are issues no person is perfect we all have them & then of course being human we are not perfect which means we clash! and there's so many people all over the place that we clash with a lot of people over a lof of stuff. now i am not sure if these things are typical for every woman that has been pregnant but i am in a slumb. the job is wonderful on most days but then you clump together 3 or 4 really bad days in a short period of time it is draining on any person, now being pregnant i have become more emtional, touchy, & just really senisitve (things i never was before) so arguing with people sometimes gets me exra flustered, emotional & drained all at once. so this meeting we had i was so excited when someone else brought up a certain department where most of our issues are coming from. being at the front desk we have our hands in every department, we are the front line people see, talk & have contact with us 24 hours a day. so we need to take what is said to us back to the appropriate department that issue, comment or feedback is really for. sometimes that hits a nerve & people get mad, or people don't understand 1. why the issue came to me at the desk rather than directly to whomever it really belongs to or 2. understand why things didn't go exactly as we (the front desk staff) was told (being a live job; people walk in & out, we have drivers picking up so things can go differently than planned there), or 3. just don't like the way we look! HA! that last one is my favorite. this job supplies us with a uniform, how do i not look appropriate or professional rather we get called "hoodlums" HA! but dealing with these issues, angry guests (when i saw angry i mean people screaming!! at you on the phone, in person, really NASTY people) and then angry co-workers is kicking my ace. i understand we are here to provide a certain service & when not given that service people get upset, but where do you get the nerve to treat another human being in that manner? it's embarrassing & your significant other stands there & just makes faces?! wtf. where did you people just come from. jackace land? blah. so all of this is draining me in every aspect. my body is drained by the end of the day (more than i feel it should be), i am emotionally drained & just ready to curl up in bed & sit in the dark, and i find my back, shoulders, neck seriously bother me (for that is where the stress lies) now my back has been bothering me a lot since i've gained a few LBs, i pulled my back out twice in my life so far, my left knee has been blown out once before so that as well is bothering me & my feet/heals are just throbbing by the end of the day so i was hoping to work up until the day peanut arrives but now with all of this stress & discomfort i am highly contemplating leaving work beforehand. so i guess i am looking for advice. i know every woman is different, completely different situation. but i am looking for input; when did you go on maternity leave? did you get a "bed-rest" diagnosis from your doctor? did you end up taking a lot of time off after your peanut arrived? i am just so stressed about this one place, work! the move isn't bothering me, money issues (we all have them), everyday life, it's work. the one extreme stress i have is work. i've been reading they say "normal stress levels" well i remember what my normal stress levels are but being pregnant everything is amp'd up 10 fold & the building has been a lot crazier due to all the changes. so i am not at my normal stress levels at all!

i guess that is all for the day fellow bloggers. pleas moms help me out with just soem advice & your personal experiences if you don't mind. i am stuck & don't know which way to turn, i am actually looking forward to my next doctors appt to talk to her about all of it, even tho i have MORE blood-work going on.ciao!

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