Curious Jennie.

So I am just wondering this morning . . does anyone think anymore? You know that ugly thing that our skulls protect, yeah you're brain, does anyone use it anymore? People are honestly blowing my mind lately! I have been pretty mellow & laid back lately (which is odd for myself) just watching people makes fools of themselves, act completely out-of-character & just seriously sitting back & watching the show. So seriously, does anyone use their brains' anymore? I know a few people that have been having a really hard time right now, but honestly a lot of us are right now, again I don't know if it's due to the seasons changing or whatever but think people! Certain actions people are making with their lives (again their own lives not mine) are just outrageous in my eyes! Marriages, having kids, taking pills or other drugs? Are these real solutions to problems we are having, seriously? I am not passing judgement in any way so please don't feel I am you do as you wish with your life, I don't have to lie in your bed you do. But seeing people around me, people I care about making (what I think are bad choices) is killing me. Obviously we give our opinions and they pretty much do as they wish but come on! Think about what you are doing before you do it. If you're having issues with a loved one, having a baby or jumping into marriage doesn't solve anything. Yeah everyone will be happy with the news for a while, things will seem to be great but in the long run will things be different? You got a ring on your finger & now debt from a wedding you are planning or you have a beautiful baby growing inside you & of course it "should" bring you two closer but then the baby comes & you now have another responsibilty on your plate & will the work hours change or attitudes change, if anything you'll be more tired, irritable & cranky and again more debt, babies aren't cheap! And taking pills or other drugs . . what does that solve? You now have something you need everyday to get by, you know need extra money to keep this habit & if you don't have it what then? I am just ranting & raving this morning because I am sitting back & watching all this happen, but I try to do stuff but honestly what can I do? You say something to someone and they get all up in arms because you've offended them, they don't have any issues, you're insenitive. BAH! You do not win ever! So please . . people use your brains! Think before you make a life altering decision. Yes, it all sounds great, an easy fix to your problems, but really? What is it fixing? And of course I do not practice what I preach always and I am not perfect, or even close but I am dying over here watching you all do silly things with your lives. I only say these things out of love & concern with you all. So that is all for now, and hopefully some of you start using you noggin! And ask for help if you need it

Today. Extremely odd day

So today is just another extremely odd day in . . about a week, week and half I've been having now. Things have been completely & utterly off in every aspect of my life, and in every meaning of the word "off". Now I am not saying everything is bad, some is it is in everyone's life but some if just a head tilter and "uh!?" statement. So I know that I have been off myself and people usually feed off of a vibe others give you so I know I am just as much at fault for the reactions I am getting from people but seriously. I am just honestly just wondering as the days of this past week go by, does anyone really I mean really stop and think about what the other persons' life is like right at that moment for them, maybe there's a reason they are not their usual self or just having a really bad week, which is completely abnormal for them? Does anyone?! I know that everyone says that they question, wonder, or care about what's going on in other peoples' lives but do you really, do you really stop and say "hey. he/she is off today, I should try and be a little nicer, or pick/poke at them to try and figure what's going on with them? Now again I know I am not perfect or always practice what I preach & probably am the first to completely bite someone's head off before thinking, but now that I am on the other end I am just highly frustrated with the way people are acting. Maybe it's the time of year, seasons changing, things dying & transitioning to winter but seriously grow the f* up! I am tired of listening to others' problems and pretending or even actually caring and having nothing in return or even worse! pretending to care! If you don't then don't bother, I'll be fine I am now without it, and if you do care then act it! I am just going through some things at the moment that most don't have a definite "yes or no, black or white" answer but be kind! Listen to what our mothers' told us, "think before you speak" stop saying dumb, mean, snappy, rude things before you think about what they may tole on another. What is usually or you may think is just a small shot may be a huge thing to that person usually or just at that particular moment. I am not sure what the point of this blog is, but isn't that the point of blogs to just rant & rave about non-sense and have an outlet for your thoughts/ideas/suggestions or whatever you may want to call them. I thought so, and that's what I am using this blog thing for. I am having an "off week or two" things have been happening that I am not cool or "kosher" with and the way others are acting, speaking are driving me nuts. I have a lot of crap going on all at once and I am tired of the whole "well Jen others' are transitioning too" or "have you stopped to think what's going on with them or how hard things are for them right now" what the f* about me? I don't care if that's selfish but if you knew me you would know that I am not selfish in any way, shape or form and I want things for me! I want people who say they care to actually act on it, don't say crap or write letters or buy me crap just do something small for me that you would know will get a smile out of me or get my mind off this non-sense going around me. Seriously! Is that too much to ask for? I personally don't think so. But I am just done, I am done caring about sh!t that just doesn't really mean as much to me as more, done acting like things are all peachy-keen when we can all see they're not, and done going out of my way doing sh!t for someone who does the bare minimum for me or just grazes by with whatever non-sense they have been. This is me protesting me! I am now doing what I want for me! I am worrying about those select few that worry for me (truly) and doing for those who do for me, I am being pulled in so many different directions in my life right now that I don't have the time, energy, or will to do that "little extra" I used to love to do anymore! So . . that's that. And I am going to enjoy doing me for once, and I am going to enjoy it thoroughly! That's all for today and I will be blogging soon, cause as I said earlier there is a lot of crap going on right now and I will have a lot to "vent" about and get off my chest. Til then fellow bloggers, til then!

Calm after the Storm

Okay, so I am feeling so much better than yesterday! I took all of my frustrations of work, scheudling, lack of sleep, lack of respect out on my apartment with my cleaning products. So not only did I kind of work out, I am way more relaxed today & the apartment got a serious scrub down! Not too shabby if I may say so myself, LoL. But I seriously wanted to apologize for the angry blog yesterday, I was (obviously) seriously frustrated with a lot of things & let them just bottle up & then I kind of exploded and I have not been my usual perky, upbeat, bubbly self. Not only do I want that lady back but some of my circle needs that right now, LOVES!! Some of my loved ones surronding me are having their own episodes at the moment so I need to get back to myself ASAP and help them out. But in my reality check of myself last night I relazied that I had some pictures I wanted to share this morning, there had been a lot of things going on in the past few weeks & I have been slacking on sharing with you. My moms' birthday had past & the girls got together for an interesting cake, bonfire & drinks then of course we had the Breast Cancer Awareness Walk with the Rock Your Sox team and I have pictures of them all. And there will be more coming, this weekend is all about myself & my beloved, we finally have some down time to just hang and enjoy each others' company & I am stoked! Also my dearest & friend of years and I are going to Haunted Acres this Thursday on Epping, NH and I am so excited! This is a yearly thing we do, go to a different haunted house at least once a season & get the pants scared off of us, and I am a huge scaredy cat but I love it! So there will be more blogs with more interesting things. Til then fellow bloggers!

Val and I at the bonfire

That would be my beautiful mom & Rileigh & her interesting cake



That is my beloved & I


Rock Your Sox family portion


Rileigh Marie*

We took the short cut, and we were proud!

Have a fabulous day/week fellow bloggers, and do as I say not as I do and don't let those grinches get you down! They seriously are not worth an ounce of us, at all!

Shut up! Seriously.

So, for the people who know me, really know me none of that "oh I know Jen she's great" people who know me & my story & my life. Know I do not like b!tchy cry baby people, especially those who are pretty much given things in their life & don't have a serious worry in their life, I just want to wind up and punch them in their faces as hard as I possibly can! Seriously, I mean I know a few people that are either ::
1. have finanical stability
2. have the most support/help in their lives that they tend to abuse it or
3. just like to b!tch & whine about sh!t that isn't anyone of their business or affects them in any way!
Seriously silver platter life here your go! So why the fcuk are you so unhappy, b!tchy, moody & a cry baby. For the even lesser few that actually know my life story (probably a total of 8, in that 8 including people who were involved in it) know that I am have been through a lot of bullsh!t & tough crap in my life, and I'm only 23 years old the fact that I am not legally insane is beyond me, but I'm not! ((keyword legally)) But I just can't wrap my mind around the fact that some people have so much support in their lives with their decisions & roads they take, have financial stability and can make ends without having to work crazy hours, have one day off a week, work double shifts & back to backs. The people doing this for their "loved ones" should literally just put a bib on these people they are "helping" feed them & then wipe their @sses after they've sh!t out their own sad attempt at running their own life! BAH! Sorry about this horrible, mean nasty blog but I'm sorry this is Boston not Bel Air & things are not just handed out to people often & when it is done, I am just want to do some baby shaken syndrom with these dumb@ss adults who take it for granted! That is all for today, sorry it was such an angry blog but I am fed up & at my whit's end with this crap. I work hard for my money & want to enjoy my time off that much more & yet people surronding me just walk around all willy nilly and being stupid with the fact that their lives are so freaking simple & don't even appreciate it.
And another thing! I do my job & I do it well. Please stop treating your co-workers like a bunch of dumba$$es and idioits because ::
1. it's mean and hurtful
2. I AM NOT ONE OF THEM
3. Get over the fact the new working force is half your age OLDIE, why don't you retire.
I really want to apology for this hostile, angry blog today! It was a ridiculously long & awful week last week & it's just falling right into this week & it's only Monday morning at 9.00a Please stay tuned I am hoping to get my sanity comes back & there are more upbeat blogs!

Settled In

So things are finally settled in the new Methuen place! Very exciting, I must say. I finally have my very own space in the apartment, we also got the internet not only to work but to go wireless for us! Whoopie. And now that the walk is over & past I was able to just focus on the apartment. Back at my parents house they have changed my old room into a room/nursery for the imaginery grandchild they have, or could possibly have soon!? Crazy old people, me brother & I are in our early 20s yes in serious relationships but my brother is just about to be 21 and has other things on his mind rather than children. And I am dating a man with a child so I have my hands full adjusting to that let alone getting pregnant, dealing with my "pregzilla" epsiodes I know I will have, so no thanks to that just yet!
But with the holiday season coming up my beloved & I are very excited. Right after Thanksgiving is when we first started talking & hanging out, Christmas was when we were "dating" and then our year anniversary is right in between Christmas & New Years, plus this is not only our first holiday season together but living together as well! So we are very eager to get things rolling, I have some serious OCD and he loves it. I clean, and cook and have things organized so he can not wait to see what I have entaled for him this holiday season. I do all (most) of the cooking for Christmas day, we'll probably family hope Christmas Eve, Thanksgiving is just a fabulous day on it's own & New Years of course is New Years and our anniversary. And I am crazy when it comes to decorating! We have a tree lined up but that's about it! We need to get everything for "our place" so this is going to be a great holiday season! Plus! I got what holidaies I wanted off this year as well (last year I got kind of screwed) and this year it's all about me! I do have to work, unfortunately being the hotel/lodging business we never close! But I do have Christmas Eve night, Christmas day, New Years Eve & New Years day off so I personally think I made out in the deal!
I know I am just rambling on in this blog about about a bunch of non-sense but it's all very exciting for me! I am out of my parents house, my beloved, Aidan and I are fabulous, the apartment looks great, and we have great plans lined up for our future. Being that today is my only day off and I am blogging from work you'd think I'd be bummed today but I am not quite the opposite. Today I woke up before my alarm, woke up refreshed & eager to go & doing nothing while sucking up OverTime. Could things be any better at the moment? I think not, unless of course I won the mega million this weekend (crossing my fingers)
So for today you're getting a bunch of non-sense and that's the way it is! Hope everyone is doing well and things are going great for them! We all have bumps in the road & crappy people involved in our day to day lives but don't let those scrooges bring you down! Let them wallow in their own misery cause it's sunny outside & in the low 70s in Oct here in Boston and it is fabulous! Ciao fellow bloggers.

The Walk was Today

Today was the "BREAST CANCER AWARENESS WALK" and my "ROCK YOUR SOX" team did a phenomenal job raising money, getting people to realize it was BREAST CANCER AWARENESS MONTH ((which lasts 31 days)), and actually getting their butts up so early on a Sunday & into the city! THANK YOU THANK YOU! MANY A THANK YOU's TO MY TEAM. We had a total of $1555 at 7.25a this morning when I last checked the team's website with more coming in from cash donations girls hadn't put on the website yet! MAJOR KUDDOS TO YOU! That was over our goal and any money raised is absolutely amazing! Everyone, but one person showed up & we also had an additional 3 show up at the last minute so we ended up making a few people on the team! LoL.



'ROCK YOUR SOX' 2008 sponsored by ::

• Four Points by Sheraton Boston Logan Airport, Revere, MA
• Cityside Towing, Charlestown, MA
• Acme Ice Co., Somerville, MA
• Supersportusa.com, Malden, MA

Thank you so very much to our sponsors, and to Mark & his great team at supersportusa.com store without you guys my chicken scratch and horrible drawing would have ruined the shirts.

This team called themselves "SASSY TATAs" thought that one was pretty awesome, there also was "FEEL YOUR BOOBIES" "MARTHAS MOBSTERS" and of course I can not think of the other clever names there were at the moment, but people thought of some awesome names!

All in all, the walk was not only a success but it was an awesome experience. The finish line was absolutely amazing, all the support from random people, the survivors & women battling breast cancer now thanking you for just walking blew me away. And as corny as it sounds, it was a bonding experience, it was a lot of fun walking 5 miles with people chatting, people you love & see all the time but also don't even know. The names of your teams spark up a conversation as well as my hat I wore, and the shade of pink you choose, or names or slogans you wore. It was just honestly an absolutely rewarding experience and I can not wait for next year! More planning, more fundraising, and beginning it all earlier so things will be ten times better! A major thank you to everyone that was there, my team mates, my family & friends, the people I met at the walk! Thank you all so much! Meant the world to me this morning!

October is Breast Cancer Awareness Month

So October is "BREAST CANCER AWARENESS MONTH" and I am doing a 5.7 mile walk on Sunday, Oct 5 2008 to support the awareness & research of this awful disease. What are you doing for this disease? There are lots of different ways to support, donate money, or just get yourself some research about it, not only are women affected by this so are men either by getting it themselves or having a loved one get it! So donate, research or support! For every 100 women with the disease, 1 man gets it! For women our chances get higher with age ::

• At 20, it's 1 in 1847
• At 40, it's 1 in 40
• The lifetime risk of getting it is 1 in every 8

Some easy ways to help reduce your chances in getting this disease are ::

• Regular physical activity -- lowers your risks, helps reduice erstogen levels, fights obesity, lowers unsulin levels, & boosts yoru immune system
• A healthy diet -- one that is balanced & low in saturated & trans fats
• Limiting alcohol intake

Signs of breast cancer vary in everyone, & most women have no signs they can see. So ((once at the point in your life)) get screened! Mammograms are horrible & highly uncomfortable but it could save your life!

(( all information above was researched from :: http://www.abc2news.com/content/breast_cancer/story.aspx?content_id=b4772ba2-b8e6-4325-952e-3303782c3c21 ))

Unforunately great bloggers, I am completely moved & our internet service is on the fritts! So I will be unable to log in, catch up on yours blogs as well as my own! So I will be back first thing Monday morning catching myself up on everything that is fabulous in the blogging world. Also, again my big walk is Sunday & I am over-due for so many pictures, a friend of mine will be helping me get my pictures ((Aidan's birthday & Weezer concert)) should be up VERY soon.