Today I don't have much to chat about; no complaints about anything really today (other than the cold weather) but I am at a good place & just thought to myself earlier, I've been thru/seen a lot of sh!t for being a 23 year old lady. The person I am today isn't you I saw myself being & ending up where I am. What about you? How do you feel about where you are exactly today?
I am 23, single, living with a man I believe to be the best man ever, financially okay, have a good full-time job & things are okay. I've seen a lot of heartbreak, failures, untimely deaths, and a lot of misplaced anger. I moved so often when I was younger that once I moved to Everett I thought I was done & that I'd be a "city girl" forever but love has brought me to the boonies, pretty much New Hampshire & I am okay with that, I am dating a man with a child (never saw that one) but I am loving both of them, I didn't get my Bachelor's Degree but did finish my Associates & was one of those statistics where I didn't use my degree but love my job & what I do. I have a small-tight knight family of which I love more than anything. I am not the richest woman in the world but I make ends meet, have a little extra to have nice things in my life & do fun activities, I work hard to due the right thing & be a good person yet feel that it gets me no where. I am a hard-headed, serious temper carrying, strong-willed, outspoken, woman who could either be the best person to have in your life or can be the complete wrong person to screw with. Been thru the "girl drama" a few too many times & have finally learned, just now at 23, that the human race isn't to be trusted. My beloved*'s family is probably the most openly warm family I have ever "dated into" LoL loving that phrase, they are so genuine & loving to the right people & I am lucky enough to be one of them. I am a serious grudge holder & can never really get over things as hard as I would like to, I can forgive but I can never forget, sorry but if you need to be forgiven or have something forgotten you shouldn't have wronged someone in the first place! I have strong opinions on a lot of subjects some of which I probably don't understand completely but the beautiful country of America allows me to voice those opinions until the day I die. I hate hypocrites, why preach all this crap if you don't do it yourself or even worse give it a half-ass attempt & then give up yet still run your mouth? I am Irish & Italian, damn proud of it.
I honestly had no idea I would be who I am today; I love who I love, do what I need to do & am probably better of a person than I thought I would be. I am now on my own two feet, which if you knew me I was one of those people who didn't ever feel the need to leave my parents house; no rules, come & go as I please & no rent LoL why leave? But I am on my own, with my beloved* & his son & moving forward. I honestly love who I am & where I am today & thank you to those who had a lot to do with it.
So where are you today? And was it anywhere near where you would be/who you would be?
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