Seriously Delayed

So our Christmas was just fabulous! Sorry for the major delay but I was actually on vacation & did a lot of nothing, sleeping & movie watching. But I am here this morning & our Christmas was fabulous. We saw everyone we wanted to see on either sides of our families, spent the day with Aidan & he was just stoked all day! He saw cousins, aunts, papa & gama. We took him to my families house which had two other kids he knew & they had a blast; gifts galore, good food everywhere, & lots of love! Just a great day. Hope everyone else's' holiday (whatever it may be) was just absolutely fabulous! Here are a few pictures from my new blackberry! Very exciting. Here's to the New Year, 2009 should be fabulous nothing but good things to happen to all of us, LoL because everything bad that was to happen pretty much did in 2008.

Oh & the 'more news' on my beloved*s Christmas present 1. I got my reaction! (lots of people said I wouldn't, I did!) 2. It was a vintage record player & a few records. He loved it. I will even quote him here 'you are the best giver ever!' Oh yeah baby! How you like them apples?

Snowed In, Again!

So being snowed in today, at my parents! I have a lot of time on my hands. (well do have to take breaks to continue the shoveling, salting show) but I felt like today would be a good day to do a fun blog! I figured today I would do an overview of 2008, for me it was a crazii, wacky, fun, loving, & full of lessons year! How was your year? Some of the things that happened this year to me & to everyone are here:

• I traveled twice! Houston, TX & NYC, on works' dollar
• Was top 3 in my class for PSCT training!
• Got stuck in the Detriot Airport overnight (not fun at all)
• Fell in love with an amazing man.
• Moved in with that amazing man!
• Fell in love with a fabulous four year old & almost one year old, Aidan & Rileigh Marie*
• Became a serious lover of :: UFC, Raising the Bar, & Sons of Anarchy.
• Found some new/old fabulous friends who are here to stay.
• Found out some interesting news about old friends.
• Became Maid-Of-Honor for my dearest friend Julie.
• Invited to Vegas & in my oldest/dearest friend Val's wedding
• Went to some amazing concerts with that amazing man, my beloved*
• Traveled with that amazing man, my beloved*
• Had some great times with dear friends.
• Went to a few rockin weddings, met some awesome people.
• Threw my first children's birthday party, & I must say it rocked!
• Not only was a participator but a team leader for the ROCK YOUR SOX team for the Making Strides Against Breast Cancer Awareness walk, raised over $2000 in one month.
• Marked my 5th year participating in the Miles for Miracles walk for the Children's Hospital of Boston
• Had some health scares, but turns out that the silver lining they were just bad episodes!
• Found the most amazing gift for my beloved/myself in August! Can't wait to use it. (more on that later)
• Dearest Danjiela moved to Vegas (excuse for a vacation now!)
• Got re-intouch with some of my favorite people in my family!!
• Realized A LOT about myself & the people I surronded myself with.
• Found out that at any age men love video games & fantasy sports! LoL

Polticis:

• We voted for our first African American president! (voted obama)
• 5 years later still in a war to help "protect" and "limit violence" yet we are still bombing in their neighborhoods.
• Bush is out of office!

Entertainment:

• The New Kids on the Block are back!
• Tom Cruise lost his sh!t on national television, LoL
• Madonna & Guy Ritchie are over!
• Britney Spears is back!
• We lost the extremely talented & gorgeous father, son, man Heath Ledger
• Batman :: The Dark Knight came out!

News:

• Gas prices raised the highest we've ever seen them go.
• Price of cigarettes & liquor went up, hell everything went up!
• Gas prices go back down, to about as low as when I was in high school.
• We are now in the worst financial standing we've ever seen.
• The entire country of the US is under a winter storm watch!
• Vegas got snow!

So I hope everyone else had a great 2008, here's to 2009. Hopefully everything that happened (negative) will stay behind with the year & nothing but good things are to come. Here's looking to nothing but good things happening in 2009, I personally want a pony & a bag of money! Good luck to me. Enjoy the snow day, yet again!

Here To Stay

So the snow is here, and it is to stay! BAH! We got about a total of 10 inches of snow in the past 24 hours, and shockingly! it's still snowing! Nothin severe or even enough to have us (who have dealt with this storm all night long) to consider actual snow, looks like the wind is blowing snow off of roofs. And there's another one on it's way! Super! Luckily though when these 3-6" fall I will be safe & warm at home this time around & not at work with soaked feet, shoveling snow & salting the sidewalk! That makes me seriously happy. Hope those of you who either had the day off or left work early got to enjoy the weather in whatever way you felt fit. I have successfully finished 97% of my Christmas shopping done! YaY! Maybe it was the over-tiredness, & complete disarray of myself all day but I was in & out of stores like I was a PA or something! All that is left is my beloved* & I needing to pick up a few thing for his lil man Aidan, a few gift cards for our parents & I need a few things for his stocking! And I am done! All of which will be done in two stops, one of which will be our church & savior Dunkin Donuts so that I personally don't consider a "stop" more of a 'God thank you for this fabulous invention & inventor of the cocoa bean!' LoL Hope everyone has their Holiday shopping done or almost done because if you are in this area, not only are there only 4 shopping days left but the weather is absolute horrible & the roads are ridiculous! But my dearest/oldest friend Val has got me a fabulous four-set of wine glasses, very colorful just how I like everything I own! And the coolest new pair of slipper socks so I am off to bath./soak in a hot tub with a yummy glass of wine & maybe a magazine or book, my beloved* has given me a bunch of books to read I just can't get myself to sit long enough to get through a chapter. So fellow bloggers enjoy the snow, stay warm & toasty & enjoy the last weekend before Christmas! Because it is going to get absolutely insane around here & very quickly. Ciao bellas*

SNOW DAY!

I personally miss the meaning of a "snow day" from when we were kids, it does not mean the same at all anymore! It know means taking care of things & not just pretending to help shovel or whatever other task our parents had to do outside. We'd run around throw snow balls, make snow angels, & just enjoy while our parents were in pure misery! LoL The tables are now turned and we are the "adults" or "parents" and I am not enjoying the other side of the table let me tell you! Here in Boston there is a huge storm coming, hell! I think it has affected most of America?! Am I wrong by saying this? I speak to people at work from Chicago & Detriot & even one girl from the Virgina, South Carolina area & she says it may get bad there? Vegas & Seattle got snow! Craziiness. It started out as just going to be 6-10' total now between today & tomorrow they are saying, and I quote the fabulous whdh.com my love of the news information, "TODAY" Clouds roll in this morning. Snow arrives around 1-2pm. Heavy snow is likely from 3pm until about 10 or 11pm. Most areas will pick up about 5-8" of snow through the day and evening. NE wind picking up and becoming gusty. Watch for blowing snow. Nantucket and the eastern Cape could changeover to sleet and freezing rain for a period today. TONIGHT: An additional 2-4" of snow is possible overnight before tapering off early Saturday morning. Still gusty. SATURDAY: Snow showers could linger along the coast and the Cape through much of the day. Estimated snowfall totals are in the special map above. Highs will only be in the mid 20s." Now the special map says most of Mass is in the gray color & that color equals 8-12' then there's a smaller portioin (potentially over the Boston area) Higher Amounts? Okay okay people! I love the snow, in small doses! None of this inches upon inches crap or so much I need to shovel my car for an hour before I can even get in it! And there's another storm coming Sunday "Another wallop of a storm. Snow showers are likely, especially outside of 128 and another 6+" of snow is possible. Looks like rain will try to mix in along the coast. We're watching because this storm could trend colder." HA! Another 6 inches! Welcome to New England people, whoever asked Santa for a white Christmas you got it!

So keep warm, put a pair of extra socks in your pockets or bags (trust me you'll want/need them), grab yourself an extra energy drink for the day & wear layers because it is going to be a long, long weekend! And for those of you who won't be working, enjoy it! For the others working I feel you're pain man! Going in today at 3p right when the storm begins & leaving tomorrow at 7a right when it probably will wrap itself up! YaY! Happy Friday. Good luck finishing Christmas shopping!

Righteous People

So this morning I am just wondering, why is that some people feel the need to let us all know that 'they try everyday to be a good person, do the right thing & right by everyone' Now my question is, why do you feel the need to tell us, and often? Now I may be nieve here thinking that, um! all people don't really want to do bad to others. I may be completely wrong here & have no idea what I'm talking about, maybe there are people (starting to believe this myself) that wake up in the morning with this whole sceme to make other peoples' day sh!t. But I honestly don't feel that people go out there & want to do others harm or bad. I mean I don't wake up in the morning & do the whole evil fist thing, laughing an evil laugh with crazii ideas in my head on how to make anothers' day horrid. I am a strong believer of karma, so I feel that if I purposely do someone wrong, I am going to get it back ten fold. I mean we all have our issues, and somehow make anothers day bad but something we said or did but they're accidental and we apologize & things are usually good after that. But why do some people feel the need to tell us every chance they get that they are out to do people good, want to be a good person & do nothing but pick dandilions & spread peace & joy around the world? Seriously, it's impossible. No one can do that everyday of their entire life! And the people that are preaching this crap are usually the dumb-witted people who don't think before they speak or do things & not realize that they affect more than just themselves by these stupid careless actions. Now I know I've been told by many people not to worry about things that don't affect me, but that's the thing it does! There are people who I have to deal with either at work, in my personal life or somehow these assh0les maneuver their ways into both! my work & personal lives. I have done honestly nothing to these people, said nothing period about any of them (if there was anything I learned when I was younger was to keep your head high & mouth shut) I may be a lot of things but a sh!t talker is def not one of them! And I honestly find it so sad because these people are so vengeful & angry when I have done nothing, said nothing, I have tried to make peace & then how am I returned the favor, tried to get sh!t out of me & then have people do horrible nasty things & then preach 'I'm a good person, I do right by everyone, I did nothing to you, this is all your fault' okay seriously! It takes two to tango! So I couldn't have completely done this on my own you did contribute in some way! thanks! for being an adult and at least admitting that. Well I have gone completely off topic, but one honestly co-insides with the other, I think. But I feel that is enough today & back to 'work' and the snow/slush we have going on here today. Maybe I will blog again later with my loverlys or smileys, maybe that's what we all need. Everyone is stressed from the holiday season & the horrible changes going on, maybe everyone needs a little pick me up! Ciao* fellow bloggers.

Wall St/Main St

I never understood the whole "Wall St meets Main St" thing everyone was talking about at first but I get it now. And I everyday check whdh.com and upon looking at the weather (fyi it's going to snow here in Boston) I come across an article Mass. to spend $8M to help end homelessness okay, not that I want people to continue to be homeless, especially in this crazii weather but where is this money coming from? I thought our economy was sh!t. And the whole $700B for Wall Street, seriously? Where are we getting this money from? I went to the grocery store picked up a few items, less than 12 here people & it came to $35!! $35 for a taco kit, chicken, cheese, a small carton of ice cream, bread, 12-pack of soda, & one of those pre-made salads in a bag!! Seriously. Yes, gas is cheaper thank the Lord for that because with my 30-45 minute ride to/from work everyday I am seriously thankful for that but we are paying for it everywhere. Food, cigarettes, liquor, everything else is going up! And ontop of us paying more out of our pockets they are just coming out of no where with these millions & billions to help save Wall Street & Main Street. Okay, I don't completely get the whole "Wall Street" thing & I have no stocks in anything so maybe I don't get it but I do completely understand getting the homeless off the streets and into warm houses. But where are we pulling this money from? Why not stop "pretending" to have sales & have special one time offers & just lower prices for the average American. Well I just wanted to comment on that article I saw, it is at whdh.com if anyone wanted to read into it & there is also a lot of information on the ice storm we just had a few days ago here in New England. But that is all I have for today, I should probably get back to my internet holiday shopping because I am pushing deadlines on getting everything on time! Ciao*

Here are some fun images I found while doing my "holiday shopping"

Kids Xmas Party.

So this weekend Kaiti, Ryan & I had a Kids Xmas Party where the kids were suppose to help us make ornaments for the house/tree and it ended up being they loved the whole pulling everything out making the mess but did not have the attention span or desire to put then millions of tiny black dots on eyes & etc. so it turned out being Kaiti, Ryan & Jen's Xmas Ornament Party which LoL actually turned out very well because we were all into it. Until, the bagel bites came out of the oven & Sex and the City came on tv (that was after looking for anything Christmas to watch/listen to) then it turned into Ryan alone! But it was a blast kids had a blast hanging out, we did a lot of ornaments & then hung out after, which we have not done in literally forever looked thru old pictures, our yearbook, drank some good wine & just laughed the damn night away. LoL But this weekend was highly productive yet got nothing done LoL don't know how I managed that one, but this upcoming week is going to be crazy. Last full week before Christmas still a few people to shop for & working a crazii amount of hours! WooHoo overtime! So here are some candids from our fabulous Christmas party on Saturday. Enjoy!

10 years later I still kick her ass.

And yet again!
This would be my victory dance & teaching of the old school dances to the kids.

Yeah there was three of them yet I still won! WaHaHa.

Some of the ornaments we made! Rockin.

Some of the mess we made!

Aidan & Hai being rockstars!

Hai, Aidan & Jason in their family band.

And there they are rockin out!

Hope everyone had a fabulous weekend & here's looking up to the last full shopping week before Christmas; lots of people, sales & craziiness all around keep the cold drinks close!

Frustrating Day

Okay! So TGiF THANK THE LORD! And it's a busy day here at the hotel; lots of paperwork to be done before the weekend, schedules to be posted, budgets & money items to get done, just a lot of things to get done! So I come in with a good nights, actually ate breakfast for once, got a fabulous coffee to energize myself for the day, just in overall good spirits today! Get here and it's craziiness! Paperwork everywhere, schedule is a mess lots of people want the same day off for our Christmas party here at work, flights delayed due to the ice storm we had last night just complete craziiness, but I'm good I'm ready I knew it would be this way today! I wasn't expecting someone I thought was my friend getting bent in shape over one day they couldn't have off, yes I'm sorry you do everything for us & we should be able to give it to you off, but we're down people here in our department myself & another supervisor are working 6 shifts in the matter of 5 days & no complaining, and you're mad cause you can't get one day off! Seriously. There was nothing we could do, we seriously tried! This person works their butt off for us & we really did try, I was even going to do a double & let them have their night off but then they went had their significant other call & harrass my boss! SERIOUSLY. Unneccessary! Not only did my boss get harrassed but all of my dirty laundry between myself & a few girls I HAD issues with that I thought were cleared up which obviously are not were spilled to my boss! WTF. Are we twleve? Because your person is unhappy you got to try & make anyone else unhappy you can? Whatever! That! is exactly why I have limited myself to these people, because I am at a place in my life where I am over the drama, over the he/she said bullcrap, drinking every night til I'm completely shitfaced & just done. I am only 23 years old but I did it all, I want to move on to new places & do new things, I've been traveling for work, seeing the world on someone elses' dollar, bettering myself in my career & found a man who loves me as much as I love him why is this so bad that people are resenting me for it? Ugh. Ontop of all this crap my family is having medical issues, there is still no heat/hot water at my apartment & I just have had enough of today! So I don't mean to bitch & moan in this blog but I have such a frustrating day today I just can't believe the events that have taken place today. Well, fellow bloggers tomorrow is Saturday which means a fabulous day off, crafts & good food with the kids, and beverages with two of my favorite ladies. Have a fabulous weekend!

Okay. So yesterday the tree was a serious bust! My beloved*, Aidan & I get all of the decorations out, pull the pieces of the tree out & start putting everything together & boom! I grabbed the wrong stand from my parent's hosue & it's for a real tree. LoL So after about 10 minutes of laughter my beloved* tries & jimmy something together to get the damn thing to stand straight! Okay so he figures that out, we make the tree look all perdy & as real as it'll get, put it in it's place in the living room & Aidan gets all excited cause it's time to plug the bad boy in, & boom! nothing! NONE OF THE DAMN LIGHTS WILL LIGHT! ARG! I immediately started screaming lyrics of the 12 Pains of Christmas Song and my beloved* laughs at me cause it was just hilarious. So he takes them all off tries & figures them out, they're fcuking dead! Okay, thank you mom & dad for being so lazii and just throwing the damn tree downstairs with the lights on it and all! Boo. Just kidding, I probably would have done the same thing LoL but the damn lights are dead & all they need to do in life is light and they can't even do that! Boo.

But that frustration died quickly because Aidan got over it really quick, & my beloved* & I had other things to worry about as in; cleaning our apartment, getting Aidan ready to go back to his momma's, getting things together to get our new fun comfy couch and then of course dinner! Lots to do yesterday! But we got it all done & my beloved* even got a nap in (somehow) and we ended our long, extremely productive day with milk & cookies & the Santa Claus Is Coming to Town movie! OOoOoO! And also we watched the UFC Fight for the Troops! We love UFC fighting, it's one of our things we bond over LoL But in the holiday spirit I'm in & the hilariousness of the song, here are the lyrics to the Bob Rivers song 12 Pains of Christmas!

The first thing at Christmas that's such a pain to me Is finding a Christmas tree

The second thing at Christmas that's such a pain to me:Rigging up the lightsAnd finding a Christmas tree

The third thing at Christmas that's such a pain to me Hangovers Rigging up the lights And finding a Christmas tree

The fourth thing at Christmas that's such a pain to me Sending Christmas cards Hangovers Rigging up the lights And finding a Christmas tree

The fifth thing at Christmas that's such a pain to me Five months of bills! Sending Christmas cards Hangovers Rigging up the lights And finding a Christmas tree

The sixth thing at Christmas that's such a pain to me:Facing my in-laws Five months of bills! Oh, I hate those Christmas cards! Hangovers Rigging up these lights! And finding a Christmas tree

The seventh thing at Christmas that's such a pain to me:The Salvation Army Facing my in-laws Five months of bills! Sending Christmas cards Oh, geez!I'm tryin' to rig up these lights! And finding a Christmas tree

The eighth thing at Christmas that such a pain to me:I WANNA TRANSFORMER FOR CHRISTMAS!!!! Charities, And whataya mean "YOUR in-laws"?!? Five months of bills! Ach, making out these cards Honey, get me a beer, huh? What, we have no extension cords?!?And finding a Christmas tree

The ninth thing at Christmas that's such a pain to meFinding parking spaces DADDY, I WANT SOME CANDY!!!! Donations! Facing my in-laws Five months of bills! Writing out those Christmas cardsHangovers! Now why the hell are they blinking?!?!?And finding a Christmas tree

The tenth thing at Christmas that's such a pain to me:"Batteries Not Included"No parking spacesBUY ME SOMETHIN'!!!Get a job, ya bum!Facing my in-laws!Five months of bills!Yo-ho, sending Christmas cardsOh, geez, look at this!One light goes out, they ALL go out!!!And finding a Christmas tree

The eleventh thing of Christmas that's such a pain to me: Stale TV specials "Batteries Not Included" No parking spaces DAD, I GOTTA GO TA BATHROOM!! Charities! She's a witch...I hate her! Five months of bills! Oh, I don't even KNOW half these people! Oh, who's got the toilet paper, huh? Get a flashlight...I blew a fuse!! And finding a Christmas tree Singing Christmas carols Stale TV specials "Batteries Not Included "No parking?!?WAAAAAAAAAAH! WAAAAAAAAAAH! Charities! Gotta make 'em dinner! Five months of bills! I'm not sendin' them this year, that's it! Shut up, you! FINE! YOU'RE SO SMART, YOU RIG UP THE LIGHTS!!! And finding a Christmas tree

A day without a Gay

So I personally am disgusted with the way the American Government is trying to tell us, Americans who we can love. First it was inter-racial couples were the target & now it's the gay community. I personally am disgusted, so what if they want to be together & get married, more power to them! One female in a relationship can be overbearing & if they want to do it with two of them, you rock it! And who is it bothering, really? Are you hurt by their love? Does something inside you physcially hurt when they express their love for each other by marriage? Who cares! Again, the whole concept of someone wanting to spend the rest of their lives with someone & have all of that put in legal terms, meaning if you're other half fcuks up it's your problem, who cares if they do it?! Let them! But! sorry, the whole point of this blog is to let everyone know of what tomorrow is, December 10th 2008 is in the making of being a nationwide stike & economic boycott. I stole this piece of information from the fabulous Miss Ali James and this is what it has to say
"We are calling for a nationwide strike and economic boycott by all Gays, Lesbian, bisexual, transgender, Intersex, Queer, Questioning, AND OUR STRAIGHT ALLIES on December 10th, 2008, International Human Rights Day.WHY?Because LGBT workers, business owners, consumers and taxpayers contribute over $700 billion to the U.S. economy each year and should not be treated as second class citizens.Because general strikes and economic boycotts are a powerful weapon in the history of non-violent protests.See http://www. pbs. org/now/society/boycott. html.Because marriage should be a Right for all Americans, including gay men and lesbians, regardless of gender, race OR religion.Because until ALL are equal, NONE are equal.HOW?1. Strike: call in gay, shut down your business, take the day off. While this may be a burden, we must be willing to make sacrifices in our fight for equal rights, including the right to marry.2. Boycott: don't buy or spend to show how much the LGBT dollar supports the American economy.3. Volunteer: show the world that our message is about love, not discrimination.See www. daywithoutagay. org .. for a list of volunteer opportunities.4. Communicate: spread the word. We need everyone's support.For more information or to sign up, see the following:Day without a Gay http://www. facebook. com/home. php#/group. php?gid=38177567454 DAYS WITHOUT GAYS ( http://www. facebook. com/event. php?eid=32387329669) ..JOINTHEIMPACT. COM ..DAYWITHOUTAGAY. NET ..GAYS ON STRIKE (also on Facebook)WHY THE NAME "A DAY WITHOUT GAYS"? We were inspired by the film A DAY WITHOUT A MEXICAN and the nationwide strike in 2006 called A DAY WITHOUT IMMIGRANTS, which were attempts by Latinos and other immigrants for equal rights and employment non-discrimination.CALL IN GAY DECEMBER 10th 2008!!!! Calling all queers! We are sending out a call to all "our people" and our allies to rally together and "call out gay." In response to the hateful and disheartening news about proposition 8 in California we are calling all our friends, family, allies, people who voted no, people who believe we should all have the same rights, people who believe that taking away rights is unjust and wrong! CALL IN GAY ON DECEMBER 10 2008.It's a Wednesday, stay home, go to parks, find things free to do in your town, be with your community! CALL IN GAY!!!!!!!"

Now I personally am for equal rights, and if you 'say' you are too then it includes the gay community. So get off your high horse and give less of a sh!t of what goes on behind other peoples' doors & more on your own, because shocker! maybe if the gays were included in our marriage statistics we wouldn't have such a high divorce rate! OH! BURN! That is all for today! Ciao fellow bloggers.

Christmas Trees

Tis the Season for Christmas Trees! So excited, yes! I personally have been slacking it is now December 9th & I have yet to put my tree up and honestly even really think about the tree at all. Shame on me! But tomorrow! Decemeber 10th will be the most fabulous day in the world because my beloved*, Aidan & I will be putting our tree, stockings & millions upon millions of decorations! Christmas is my favorite time of the year! And last year someone was a bit of a grinch, no names! BUT this year will be fabulous, filled with lots of love, warmth & joy! I can not wait for tomorrow, also! we are getting a new couch! Whoopie. So I have lots to do here at work & planning for tomorrow LoL lots to do in such a short amount of time. Here are some fun pictures of Christmas trees to get everyone in the spirit.

Cute little silver tree.
HaHa fun upside down tree, I'd like to try this once.

Mulitple cute lil silver trees.

CHARLIE BROWN!

You can go green & have a perdy Christmas tree.

even MGM is Christmasy all year long!

I WANT MULTIPLE TREES IN MY HOUSE!

Gorgeous.

FaLaLaLaLaLaLa

I Triple Dog Dare You!

I triple dog dare you! LoL the lovely Lisa just said that to another girl at work here LoL hilarious! How long has it been since someone had said that to/near you? LoL I love it. I swear my job isn't a really job, it's a place where we come, dressed in 'uniforms' joke around, run around the hotel & literally laugh our asses off all day! LoL love my job! But . . to the blogging! So after my horrible, mortifying, long, painful, embarrassing week I finally enjoyed myself to the fullest on Saturday. It was my oldest friend Kaiti's beeday and of course we had to go out & have a blast regardless of how shitty our own weeks were! and man did we! We went to Bisuteki Japanese Steakhouse in Revere where I swear to god we had the most absolute best time & then went back to Cheryl's house, momma of the McG clan. Somehow I managed to stay up & out until 3.30a, stunning I know! And I became an honorary McG! FABULOUS! Bam chicka bam waw. I went home to my beloved* finally on Sunday & it was so good to see, hug & kiss him again. Not seeing the love of your life in a week is so hard! Super excited, after a horrible, miserible week could things get any better? Now it's Monday afternoon & I am back to work & feeling great. Absolutely great! LaLa . .onto Christmas! Seriously slacking in that area, doing the tree this week, wrapping the fabulous gift I already have my beloved* & doing Aidan's Christmas shopping this week . . at some point LoL not exactly sure when. Super excited! OH! AND ontop of all the fabulous-ness our anniversary for being together for a year is in between Christmas & New Years, uh! Life is good! Well bloggers, we have a machine here in the office that is absolutely ridiculously loud & I can not think so I am off for now, ciao*

it is the 5th.

So it's December 5th, that leaves only 19 shopping days until Christmas. 19 shopping days! Oh my goodness, I am so unprepared this year it's not even funny! I have been completley under the weather, Thanksgiving snuck up on me this year & you don't even really need to be prepared for that just show up at a relatives house with a tumbley rumbling. Now! Christmas is sneaking right up on me as well and I am slacking! OH NO! I was good up until . . uh about a month ago LoL I had started shopping on the internet for a few items over the summer, yes! the summer and figured eh! I've started I can slack a little, it will be absolutely fine I mean I did get a head start, right? NOPE! Definitely not the case at all, because I did that now I'm just like eh! next week, okay this weekend, okay damn I gotta pay this or that & I swear I'll do it this weekend. LoL And now here it is December 5th and I have presents & decorations & lots of spirit but no movement since! LoL Is anyone else feeling like the hours, days, and months are just passing way too fast? When we were younger the Holiday Season couldn't come fast enough & now it's like shit! when the hell did Halloween get here? Cause that is really what starts the domino affect! Damn you Halloween, for getting us all so wrapped in the excitement of being silly, scared, chilly, & just having loads of fun that we forget we're 'adults' now & we need to strap ourselves done & get the show on the road! LoL So I am off to seriously start 'website shopping' and writing down exactly what I'm getting everyone, where it is, & ( LoL, here's where the OCD kicks in ) map out where I'm going & exactly what my shopping day will consist of. Because there's nothing I hate more than being unprepared & disorganized is dealing with the malls & the complete bags that it somehow find their way out of their wholes & into society. So I am off, to shop! This long, miserible, terror of a week has finally come to an end & hope everyone enjoys their weekend, bundle up it's going to be chilly. Ciao*

So Maybe.

Okay, so maybe my last blog went in the wrong direction. What I am trying to get across is that we show ourselves in a certain light when we first meet someone new & then of course begin to get comfortable & start to show more & more of our 'real' selves as the comfort level gets higher. And as we learn more about the new person we've met we start to see we clash in certain areas, certain areas that have to be dealt with & really often. But when one meets in the middle & it takes "bitching" or "nagging" to get the other to meet halfway, is that really the fair thing to do? I mean, yes! no one asked for one of us to just automatically meet in the middle, but should you need to be asked to do things for the one you love? You do them because you have learned certain facts about that person & realize it'll mean a lot to them if you did certain things, so why is it that the other can't do it for you because they would be compromising who they were? I just don't get it. And then of course, all the "bitching" gets thru finally! and they try and work things out & do things a little different, but it never takes long for the old habits to jump right back into play, and we're back at square one. I just don't know, maybe I am impossible or extremely difficult but I personally don't think having both members of a friendship, relationship, whatever meet you halfway & actually put an effort into it isn't too much to be asking for. Maybe I am just in a rut at the moment, due to the stuck in bed syndrom I have, who knows. But my mind can wonder, seriously! LoL and I have slept a good amount of the day but also have been pondering a lot of different things, people, and situations that are surronding me at the moment and whether or not it's all worth it. Should 'friends' act a certain way? Should 'loved ones' just be 'eh whatever' I mean yes we all have our days, so when is it not just that day and when is it they're being selfish, unsensitive & completely selfish. Or maybe it's me? Maybe I am just like 'eh whatever' towards these people & not realizing that I too need a reality check? HHHhHhmmm. The millions of questions I have, and so little in answers.

Wondering.

So today, again stuck in my house on 'bedrest' I have a lot of time on my hands and only so much stuff to actually keep me busy so my mind wanders, and if you actually know me I think up crazii thoughts/stories. But today I feel I am more realistic in my thoughts & wonderings. I wonder, well this statement I rather actually stand completely behind. Why is it that we show so much of ourselves at the beginning part of the relationship with someone new? Why don't we show our full & complete selves from day one, so that way that whole 'you knew who I was from the beginning, this is me sorry but I won't change this way the way it was before you came around and this is the way it'll stay' actually means way more. Now I completely agree with that to a point, yes! everyone is a certain someone & if you start dating someone, fall in love with them that's who you fell in love with & they shouldn't change. But where is the compromise? Every relationship has to have give & take, and you have to sometimes do/go somewhere you don't neccessarily want to, because you love that person. And ( LoL ) trust me I do my fair share of compromising, so I am just wondering where is the breaking point? Apparently, women 'bitch' I agree yes, but when it is really 'bitching' or 'nagging' rather than just making a statement the other doesn't like? If someone is asked, what do you think/feel about this? And you give them an honest answer & they don't like it, why is that considered 'bitching'? I don't personally see it as that but hey! what do I know right, I'm just a needy female. I also hate that phrase after someone says all your faults and their reasoning to 'dealing' with it is 'because i love you' okay seriously, you just made me sound like a complete douche & because you love me you deal with it? BAH! I swear men & women really are from different planets and for some reason we can not get thru to each other with everything because (don't even try and deny it) we all have disagreements, fights & arguments. Now maybe I am being 'oversenitive' as many have said I am lately, but I believe these people around me who know what the hell is going on with me are forgetting what the hell I've been thru the past few day,s HELL!! is where I've been, literally. And if I am being a little oversenitive, whiny or needy oh well, you love me deal with it, I have been thru hell the past few days. I don't know what the purpose of this blog & rant is today but I am stressed, annoyed, & honestly just thinking a lot about a lot and wondering how much more I can hold my composure & just breathe thru the anger, frustration & pain. Because I honestly don't think it's much longer. Well, I imagine I'll be back later today, again, sitting on my ace doing a whole lot of nothing but thinking so I may need somewhere to be oversenitive & whiny. Thanks fellow bloggers.

I love.

So today has been a long day, even though I've done much of nothing. Extremely stressful, full of anxiety, pain, and just an overall horrible day. But like I stated earlier, I had a lot of time on my hands & I am doing a fun blog for today full of things I love! I have done one before, so I am picking some new items I love, and plan to continue this once in a while. So here you go!

I love taking goofy pictures, I believe I have more pictures of me being goofy than any other.

Not only goofy but completely smashed in this one!
Even back in high school I was doing silly pictures, senior luau.

Just a random night dressed hilariously & my beloved* thought it would be a good time to snap a picture of me at 2am, thanks babe!

Kaiti, myself & Melissa. re-do of the original taken like 9 years ago.

Yup same night as first picture, told you I was smashed, have no idea how I ended up on the floor but everyone got a cup with their name on it that night!

Burnt to a crisp in Miami, they thought my height with that bar would be funny, the slogan for it ' you have to be this tall to get on the ride '

Another in Miami, sticking my head in a lions' mouth.

HaHa, my boss took this picture at work, she didn't think I'd fit in the bag! Proved her wrong.

I absolutely love That 70s Show something my beloved* & I bonded over.

I heart my Lizzie Poo Bear, oldest & only female cousin.

I heart Emma. Since myself, the only other female in the family! Cutest little lady!

I love fuzzy socks!

Of course, I love the Red Sox.

I love TinkerBell.
Even at 23 I want more TinkerBell items, have TinkerBell all over my room. no shame!

Two loves in one here! Goofy pictures & Willy Wonka.

I love teddy bears, have only three now! But the three I have I actually sleep with. no shame!

I guess it's more of a need, than a love but I always have a fan in my bedroom & have it on!

Love collecting dolls. Have a bunch in my bedroom, and even more in boxes stored away.

That's all for today fellow bloggers, I am exhausted & going to a slacker for once in my life, ah! can't wait two days of nothingness, well minus this morning. Til next time.

Yup.

Yup! So today was the dreaded, horrible, longest hour of my life, thank the Lord it's over! and now nothing but bed rest, sleep & horrible day time shows for the rest of my long way over needed restful, nothing day. With barely any sleep the last few days you'd think I'd have a million things to blog about or have tried blogging about aimless things at 3am when I'm up and miserible but I haven't and I failed NaBloPoMo as I mentioned in my blog yesterday. Without getting in to crazii details (not a very open person about my personal life, issues, feelings) let's just say today was seriously, no sarcasim over dramatic exaggeration here, the worst day of my life thus far, even only being 10.45 in the morning. I was up like I mentioned at about 2am couldn't sleep have no idea when I actually went back to sleep but got back up at 7am and went to see, seriously, a fabulous doctor. Thank god my mother went with me or I honestly believe out of the complete blind numbing pain I was in I probably would have killed her & everyone in the office, LoL. Horrible I know, but I am the biggest baby to pain & this morning was horrid! I actually had a panic, anxiety, and hyperventilation attack all at the same time. But, I am feeling a million times better, getting to do nothing all day today (time to research & blog more interesting things) sleep, watch horrible day time shows, and as far as it's looking get to do it all again tomorrow! Which for me, is rather exciting. So fellow bloggers I believe I may nap, eat some lunch, and then research some cool stuff to finally blog about after almost a week on a crazii leave, I am back! And ready for action!

i FAiLED !!

>> i FAiLED!!! <<

I failed you NaBloPoMo! I made it all the way to the 28th & then failed miseribly!! I am so sorry, I fell awful. LoL I would drive my beloved* nuts late at night when we are all comfortable ready for snuggles & I would scream! 'I gotta blog tonight sh!t' LoL But I failed, I am sorry! I have been quiet sick lately & that is why I haven't blogged, yeah yeah I know oh what's it take to get your laptop lazii girl & blog in bed. HEY! ( lol ) YOU HAVE NO IDEA WHAT THE HECK I'VE BEEN GOING THRU THESE PAST FEW DAYS IT HAS LITERALLY BEEN HELL! And tomorrow is the day I have been dreading since it all started, it is not only going to be an emotional hell but a physcial hell! ARG! If I could skip any day in my entire life tomorrow would be it, and not by any close race but blown the rest of my days out of the water.

But things other than that have been okay, work is good. Hours changed 12p-10p long days but only four of them & up til this whole 'episode' have been actually flying by & going pretty well work with the entire staff here for the drivers, & front desk agents which rocks cause I actually do enjoy 99.9% of the people I work with. Family is good, kids (don't have any LoL) are good, my beloved*, Aidan are both good. Can't really complain at this particular moment. And really don't have much to b!tch about on this blog, other than the fact that friends who aren't really friends, who once in a while try & pretend their friends in a half ass way & then expect it to be your fault that things aren't the way they once were. OH WELL. But that is all for the night, I may be back tomorrow to b!tch about doctors, nurses & hospitals (which is what most of my day will consist of, yay* for days off) or may just take some meds & pass out! Ciao fellow bloggers* oh how have I missed you all so dearly.